Finally, after clearly seeing these subsequent busy ideas roll in and cause delay after the initial will-program began (a line of hesitation and excuses, etc.), this was the perfect start I needed. As revs climbed in my motor, the sluggish weight of time in my pressurised thoughts made the gap feel terribly hard to close, to get to the ‘acted’.
I wanted to get it over and done with ASAP!
So how did I respond from here? Directly with more complication, as per usual. I thought more and more on how to close the gap!
I kept on finding MORE and MORE excuses to both BUY and SELL Time.
First, I started thinking — bad idea 😞. Next, I considered shifting the task to a later date. Following on, I’d also look for other quick ways to get to a new mental reward that made me feel good. Then finally, I got overwhelmed by both the sense of urgency to get the job done or moved up AND my resistance not to break habits.
Therefore, a combination of overlapping choice and direction made things all the more difficult to handle.
Do I Need a Gap for Thinking?
Again, either unnecessary energy got wasted from the get-go by crazy lovemaking with early rewards spent, and there was a lack of enthusiasm for actual liftoff. Or, in the closing of the gap, I grew anxious in another wastage. This was usually when I was about to strap in or had just strapped into the task.
And to think I could use time to think to my advantage to help produce better results, it wasn’t the brightest idea.
Time was never on my side!