Do you remember repeating the following over and over to family, friends and peers?
Hey, I’ve got the BEST idea ever, and I’m gonna make it happen!
Well, I do, like yesterday.
Yet it didn’t matter what fruit I picked out of the bowl that day week or month as it always tasted great. And to the point, I had convinced myself that this particular ideal (apple/pear/banana) was the absolute one. While perhaps convincing others of the same notion too.
However, the boost or surge didn’t last long, regardless of whatever it was I bit on and held high to show you!
It’s All a Matter of Time
Whether my willed-idea meant a long term job with tedious steps for my reward or a small one-off domestic task to avoid a problem, neither mattered. I’d always end up with the same annoying interference in the -middle- called Time.
I’d spent so much life speculating over ways I could close this gap between the ‘thinking’, ‘acting’, and finally wrap it up at the ‘acted’ as my willpower completes its job and I happily cash in. So I needed to find a way to bypass the annoying time interval altogether (and often, the job) to get to my reward at the ‘what should be’ end. Hence, I’d end up giving myself more time in the process from all the over-thinking! Or I felt time significantly more. 🤦♂️
As usual, my habits are brilliant at finding any excuse possible to maintain their position, and I’d only add more thought into the process, increasing my perception of time. I’d add more tunnel into the way of my light while under the impression I’m knocking down walls to get there sooner, funnily enough.
The Longer Detour in a Short Run 😕
Do you see how annoying this is?
Surely everyone’s had a good taste at some point or still is? I add unnecessary thinking into the equation by massively converting my mental rewards early. I theoretically eliminate the gap between the ‘thinking’ and ‘acted’ and head straight to the bank!
It’s ludicrous, but standard! By habit, I respond to a challenge by inflating it, thinking that a good thing is underway instead. I automatically speculate for MORE PUSH because ‘I think’ I need the extra help to get the job done.
Except, the reality is, these positive thoughts also burn up my energy, thereby, encouraging objective background chatter to intervene when the time to act gets near.
Time Is Closing In
So not only does a variety of chatter throw me off from the very start of my idea, the inception period, but pressures intensify as I get super close to the acting, if not during. My busy state of mind significantly compresses the perception time, making events feel even longer than what they already are. I.e. Life is now murkier!
Next, with a well-fed or fuelled up sense of resistance running the show upstairs, whether I like it or not, I want nothing more but to get the job done AND run away from it, simultaneously.
Help, I’m in conflict again. I got too much choice running around!
I’m nearing the point to where I’m about to disturb my comfortable patterns by abruptly changing my behaviour, or I’m already strenuously running the job because I spent my reward early. Now additional thoughts bombard/intervene to try and pull me out.
I do like the idea of Willpower-by-Appeal; it’s inviting. But always only at arm’s length, away from the ACTUAL LEG WORK. Besides, it’s far too easy to fall blindly in love and bypass the job altogether, as I’d hop skip and jump straight onto a cheque without ever lifting a finger. Now that’s what I call; Tasty Speculation!
Ah, so that’s why he’s lazy… He’s running marathons upstairs!