Today, when a task comes up that hasn’t set into a steady pattern, I expect nothing short of stories attached. In fact, it’s easier to accept that I’m about to enter into excuse mode or distraction talk from my lifelong thicker skin. However, by now understanding that ANY subsequent thoughts from here are ‘obstacles’, often ‘well-disguised’, this is a huge relief and lightens my load.
If only I learnt this as a kid, I can’t help but wonder. And what if I could go back in time and do it all again, with fresh insight?
There would be no more succumbing to the desire of my will at arm’s length as I would’ve learnt how to negate the positives before speculation bites. Surely, that would’ve made a considerable change today?
Also, when dealing with the one greater aspect from a deep yet simple understanding, which means, no more digging around a scattered filesystem, unnecessarily, I’d consider, another big help.
I dare say my content and programs as a young adult would’ve been packaged and categorised neatly. Life, overall, would be optimised earlier, etc.
Any task that demands my will upfront means I’m either eager for a reward OR I want to avoid a problem/punishment (which can equate to a reward). Otherwise, I won’t break my comfortable patterns or set-ways. Today, I simply observe all urges, impulses and reactions in relation-to.
The byproducts of ‘my will’ are
When I cash in on rewards early and hard, spending energy, this weighs me down at liftoff or before contact with the task.
In the closing of the gap between the idea and act, there’s a compression, and I feel majorly delayed. Time amplifies and weighs on my psyche (I.e. Weight). I’m overwhelmed by fluctuating thoughts (the up and down stories and excuses, etc.) since destructive mind chatter can also dress up as the ‘greatest help’.
By and large, there’s nothing useful here. Please don’t listen, Lee! As time closes into the task, any engagement into my background sucks more energy which potentially stops or reduces the flow in my real world.
So by seeing all of the above play out, this helped release the majority of my unnecessary thinking, allowing smoother outward behaviour change. And even though a task may feel foreign and resistful at first, once the physical path gets a start and lifts off (thus, clearing and strengthening my neural pathways), things settle down.
Therefore, when my will is optimised and runs efficiently from less interference, I ease my way into new movements that become less foreign against my set-ways.
Lastly, in the case where there were too many instances of my will in different areas of life, this also caused a heavier workload and immediately reduced the value behind each idea. Distance between my thoughts from each fragment (areas of life, double/triple lives, personas, etc.) bred overlaps and fluctuated my behaviour in another waste of energy. Fortunately, I’ve now culled the majority of crap and kept mostly what works in with my nature.
Today’s Standing With My Willpower
Life benefits from the one robust and lightweight instance.
Are you ready to focus on the last Channelling My Attention part?
Get your LENS out and ready because we WILL be putting our attention there. 🧐