From scratch, I always had trouble channelling my willpower efficiently. However, today, I feel I’ve finally grown alongside this player in the sense that, it’s needed far less than ever. For once, I’m not gripping on as tight or forcing things in place, as I used to all the time.
While in a previous habit, not only was it involved, it was forever jammed in my face by both myself AND others.
When I use willpower in the traditional sense, I force my behaviour along a particular line using increased pressures from behind my ideas. Otherwise, without this, I might end up doing a sloppy job or could quickly turn away.
But as you may be aware by now, traditions aren’t my strong point, and these poor outcomes were almost always guaranteed, no matter what way I used my will. Which, brings me over to a new approach on the issue, with, the less of it, the better, attitude. Especially when dealing with an odd type of mind that cannot get things right from the start. A weaker mind I once harboured.
Now let’s say I need the willpower to complete a task ahead. Then, why do I continue to burden myself with a function that I’ve recently worked out comes standard with Heavy Related Background? (I.e. When my enforcement voice kicks in and tries to get the job done)
Where, in the case of a juicy reward, a build-up of persuasive mind chatter at the beginning (a pro-force) eventually drew in objecting or resistful thoughts (an against-force) soon after. Which, IN TOTAL, ran a higher activity on the inside only, while any potential forward movement in the real world suffered as a result.
Whether for reasons of pleasure-seeking or in my attempt to avoid fear, yet again (Will-by-Fear, the other of the two motivators), I’d try my best to follow these directives that were pushing towards an objective.
By using an effort to align the physical to meet with the mental roadmap laid out (which is ‘will’ in a nutshell — via the conscious demand), I was under the impression that this was the only logical thing to do, and I had to see it thru. So from the idea, powered up, by, ‘my will’, an aggressive/highly-combustible force, I’d reach thru my inside world to get to a TREAT on the outside. Or at least, this was my everyday attempt.