Heavy Fragment Prison

Feeling Heavy

Here is a typical scenario of where I reinforce a Dense Psychological Fragment

I feel problems in the cogs and pressures rise (again). Why? I’m about to meet another experience related to an outstanding issue. The disruption of flow is my only formal notice to prep before the storm (except on most occasions, it feeds a storm! ⛈️).

Next, with the sense of time being its usual pain in the butt and amplifying, I look relentlessly for a fix. I hunt for the best thoughts (anything loaded with answers) to deal with my issue before I make contact with it in reality.

Driven by an increasing surge of fear of something unpleasant ahead (a potential breakdown), whatever practicality running the show upstairs now comes under risk. My overall stress and anxiety levels intensify and soon, I’ll hit a peak. Therefore, I manifest this god-forsaken breakdown, so it’s no longer ahead!

Not only that but on top of my mess (or confinement/cage that’s closing in hard), I’ve also managed to convince myself;  I’ve explored every possibility that might help my situation. 

But, as usual, I can’t slow it down or stop looking. I continue going round and round in mental circles with absolutely nothing new to report!

I check, double-check, triple-check, etc., as most do under heavier stress. However, it’s too late, and I’m spent. I’ve inflated the issue and drained myself in the process.

It’s now time to pack my bags and get to my holiday spot asap!

Follow the Signs to Serenity

So after working myself up into a massive fuss over things others may find trivial, it’s time to eject and jump to a convenience that will set me free. Thru a specialised meditative escape hatch readied for my approach, I use the quickest route from my imagination and transport myself away.

Whatever the story, it doesn’t matter as the above is what usually plays out. Depending on the intensity/density or psi, I’d use one, two or a few levels of rituals, to ultimately suppress the pressure by augmenting space.

Like a valium, this can almost immediately stop the problem from targeting my nervous system (short term).

Other times it takes longer.

As my journey begins, it means my attention has sought refuge from the chaos in the cogs.

The driving fact is, I’m an experienced traveller who regularly crosses State Lines.

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