The Drive in My Life

Front or rear-wheel drive, neither mattered in my case. Moving forward, in general, became complicated once I hit an age.

So I asked life…

Why the extra challenge? Why out of the trillions and trillions of star systems, did I end up here with backward cogs?

Or the bigger question…

Who the hell dumped me in the middle of a right-handed infestation? 😤

A kid with his kart
When things were simple.

The Complex Drive

My attention isn’t the easiest thing to satisfy as I’m sure most will agree in today’s world. With a variety of forces pulling here, there and everywhere -/+/-/+, I try my best to bring my awareness back and hold onto it firmly. Or, at least to where I think it should STAY and get the job done! So that I learn, work and focus, etc.

Then, in the next few moments, there it goes again… OFF, wandering into another forest of thinking as I’m no longer concerned about the track I had planned.

Now, I want to drive my reality efficiently and not stumble as I had, nearly my entire life. Yet, I know I won’t achieve anything worthwhile if I keep floating off into various distractions.

Which begs the next question…

My Powerful Distractions

Why is the appeal quality fluctuating so rapidly between different things and aspects, like a stubborn habit that will not end or settle down? Because, whenever the lights do turn green for something far less productive (which was all the time), either towards entertainment or social networking, etc., then all of a sudden my original plan goes straight out the window. Instead, my efforts transfer as I rationalise the move with some random bogus excuse that helps justify escaping the original plan.

Whatever it was, it doesn’t matter anymore. I’m now gone… I’m LIGHT-YEARS away.

But again, it doesn’t stop here…

You see, once I’ve had enough of all one, two and three distractions, off I go into something else. My attention jumps on and on, eventually looping me back to the very start of the next hopeful run at my elusive task. Which, furthermore, is usually when the guilt kicks in from having strayed in the first place.

It’s the story of my life!

I want to go one way, but my mind says… Forget that! look over here, instead. While later, it’s followed on with… Fool! You shouldn’t have listened to me. Now, how are we gonna fix this and get our wasted time back?

My Driving Trio

After many tedious hours working this mess out, I’m finally on it. I discovered that our 3 big players responsible for channelling the attention are ‘Desire’, ‘Willpower’ and ‘Focus’. Although they must all be related/connected and branch down together to the one root system, which is what I’ll need to uncover.

Next up is a layout describing the Complex and Simple nature of each player I’ve experienced. By clearly seeing the Complex, I have freed up space arriving at the Simple. And as a result, I’ve now knocked down or changed my most potent or bad-habits to date

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