Finally, after clearly seeing these many ideas stack up and cause delay after the initial will-program began (a line of hesitation and excuses following the creative thoughts), this was the perfect start I needed. As revs climbed in my motor, the sluggish weight of time in my pressurised thoughts made the gap feel terribly hard to close and to get to the ‘acted’ on the other end.
I wanted to get the task over and done with as the appeal went into reverse!
So how did I respond from here?
Directly with more complication, as per usual. I thought more and more on how to close the gap in which I lived!
I Kept on Finding More and More Excuses to Both BUY and SELL Time.
First, I started thinking in another direction which was a bad idea because I’m still ‘thinking’ adding weight to my nervous system.
Within these thoughts, I pushed the task to a later date essentially buying more time.
While in the far background, I’d look for other quick ways to get to a new mental reward which also helped to make me feel good again.
All up, I got overwhelmed by both the sense of urgency to get the job done in a variety of ways AND my resistance not to break habits by postponing the activity.
Therefore, a combination of overlapping choice and direction made things all the more difficult to handle.
Is There a Need to Keep a Gap for Thinking via the ‘Will Protocol’?
No, or very little! Again… My energy gets wasted from the get-go by crazy lovemaking with early rewards spent, and this leaves a lack of enthusiasm. Also, stagnation occurs because in the closing of the gap to the actual liftoff, I grow anxious and agitated which creates more waste. So by the time I’m about to strap in or had just strapped into the task, I’m far from interested.
And to think I could use ‘time to think’ to my advantage and produce better results… It wasn’t my brightest idea.
Time was never on my side!