Today, when a task comes up that hasn’t set into a steady pattern, I expect there to be plenty of stories attached. In fact, it’s easier to accept that I’m about to enter into excuse mode or distraction talk from my lifelong thicker skin. However, by now understanding that most subsequent thoughts from here on become obstacles, and often they are well-disguised, this is a huge relief and lightens my load.
But if only I learnt this as a kid, I can’t help but wonder… What if I could go back in time and do it all again with fresh insight?
There would be no more succumbing to the desire of my will at arm’s length as I would have learnt how to negate the positives before speculation bites. Surely, that would have made a considerable change today?
Also, when dealing with the one greater aspect from a deep yet simple understanding, which means no more digging around a scattered filesystem unnecessarily, I’d consider it to be another big help.
I dare say that my content and programs as a young adult would have packaged and categorised the world’s knowledge neatly. Life, overall, would have optimised earlier.
Any task that demands my will upfront means I’m either eager for a reward OR I want to avoid a problem/punishment (which can equate to a reward). Otherwise, I won’t break my comfortable patterns or set-ways. Today, I simply observe all urges, impulses and reactions in relation to an upcoming task.
The byproducts of ‘my will’ are…
When I cash in on rewards early and hard, spending energy, this weighs me down at liftoff or before contact with the task.
In the closing of the gap between the idea and act, there’s a compression, and I feel majorly delayed. Time amplifies and weighs on my psyche: i.e., creating Weight. I’m overwhelmed by fluctuating thoughts as up and down stories and excuses play games. Be careful, destructive mind chatter can also dress up as the greatest help.
By and large, there’s nothing useful here. Please don’t listen to it! As time closes into my task, any engagement into the background sucks more energy which potentially stops or disrupts the flow in my real world.
My willpower over-inflated early resulting in a weak takeoff
So by seeing all of the above play out, this helped release the majority of my unnecessary thinking, allowing smoother outward behavioural change to occur. And even though a task is foreign and soon creates a resistance, once the physical path gets a start and lifts off (thus, clearing and strengthening my neural pathways), things settle down.
Therefore, when my will is optimised and runs efficiently from less interference, I ease my way into new movements that become less foreign against my set-ways.
Lastly, in the case where there were too many instances of my will in different areas of life, this also caused a heavier workload and immediately reduced the value behind each idea. Distance between my thoughts from each fragment (areas of life, double/triple lives, personas, etc.) bred overlaps and fluctuated my behaviour in another waste of energy. Fortunately, I’ve now culled the majority of crap and have kept what aligns with my nature.
Today’s Standing With My Willpower
Life benefits from the one robust and lightweight instance.
Are you ready to focus on the last Channelling My Attention part?
Get your LENS out and ready because we WILL be putting our attention there. ?