From the beginning, I’ve always had trouble channelling my willpower efficiently. However, today, I feel that I have finally grown alongside this player in the sense that it is needed far less than ever. For once, I’m not gripping on as tight or forcing things in place as I used to all the time.
While in a previous habit, not only was willpower involved, but it was forever jammed in my face by both myself AND others.
When I use my willpower in the traditional sense, I force my behaviour along a particular line using increased pressures from behind my ideas. Otherwise, without this, I might end up doing a sloppy job, or I could quickly turn away from my goals.
But as you may be aware by now, traditions aren’t my strong point. And, these poor outcomes were almost always guaranteed no matter what way I used my will. Which brings me over to a new approach on the issue, with the ‘less of it the better’, fresh attitude. Especially when dealing with an odd type of mind that cannot get things right from the start; i.e., the weaker mind I once carried.
Now, let’s say I need my willpower to complete a task ahead… Why do I continue to burden myself with a function that I have recently worked out comes with such a Heavy Background? Why do I allow the voice of an enforcer to override the voices of my creativity and inspiration?
As the sales pitch increases with all the hype and promises, I immediately sign up to a new contract. It is now my will to do this great thing! However, when it comes time to pay up with my ill-equipped will, I get chased down by a debt collector to whom I feed excuses to.
For example, in the case of a juicy reward that creates a willed-idea, a build-up of persuasive mind chatter at the beginning (a pro-force) eventually draws in objecting or resistant thoughts (an against-force) when it comes time to pay the bill with ‘action’! Which, IN TOTAL, bottles up pressure on the inside, while any potential forward/productive movement fails to get released into the real world.
Fizzling Out Before Take-Off
Whether for reasons of pleasure-seeking or in my attempt to avoid fear yet again (Will-by-Fear Protocol, the other of the two motivators), I’d try my best to follow these directives that were pushing towards an objective.
By using an effort to align the physical to meet with the mental roadmap laid out (which is ‘will’ in a nutshell via the conscious demand function), I was under the impression that this was the only logical thing to do, and I had to see it thru.
So from the idea powered up by ‘my will’, an aggressive/highly-combustible force, I’d reach thru my inside world to get to a TREAT on the outside. Or at very least, this was my everyday attempt.