From scratch, I’ve always had trouble channelling my willpower efficiently. However, today, I feel that I have finally grown alongside this player in the sense that it is needed far less than ever. For once, I’m not gripping on as tight or forcing things in place as I used to all the time.
While in a previous habit, not only was it involved, but it was forever jammed in my face by both myself AND others.
When I use my willpower in the traditional sense, I force my behaviour along a particular line using increased pressures from behind my ideas. Otherwise, without this, I might end up doing a sloppy job, or I could quickly turn away.
But as you may be aware by now, traditions aren’t my strong point. These poor outcomes were almost always guaranteed no matter what way I used my will. Which, brings me over to a new approach on the issue with the ‘less of it the better’, attitude. Especially when dealing with an odd type of mind that cannot get things right from the start. A weaker mind I once carried.
Now, let’s say I need the willpower to complete a task ahead. Then, why do I continue to burden myself with a function that I have recently worked out comes standard with Heavy Background? Or when the voice of an enforcer soon joins the party and eventually takes over from the creative sales and marketing team?
After the sales pitch, I immediately sign up as you had me from the start. But now, it’s not long before a debt collector comes rushing in to collect on the reality of my will.
For example, in the case of a juicy reward that creates a willed-idea, a build-up of persuasive mind chatter at the beginning (a pro-force) eventually drew in objecting or resistful thoughts soon after (an against-force). Which, IN TOTAL, bottles up pressure on the inside only while any potential forward/productive movement in the real world can’t get expressed.
Fizzling Out Before Take-Off
Whether for reasons of pleasure-seeking or in my attempt to avoid fear yet again (Will-by-Fear, the other of the two motivators), I’d try my best to follow these directives that were pushing towards an objective.
By using an effort to align the physical to meet with the mental roadmap laid out (which is ‘will’ in a nutshell via the conscious demand protocol), I was under the impression that this was the only logical thing to do, and I had to see it thru.
So from the idea powered up by ‘my will’, an aggressive/highly-combustible force, I’d reach thru my inside world to get to a TREAT on the outside. Or at very least, this was my everyday attempt.