The Focus Complex

My world said that if I don’t focus properly, I won’t achieve my objective.

But what did they mean by properly?

Was it so that I process detailed knowledge along a specific line in order to gain strength? While also maintaining STRICT behaviour to keep the activation alive and steady?

Yet the times I did try and stay focused, I was far from contained. In most cases, I’d hear the sound of a clock ticking louder and louder as if something annoying tore straight thru my barricade and entered into my zone.

And it wasn’t the actual steady ticks that I knew while sitting in a small quiet room with one hanging above

Rather, this noise was electrified. It was a picky type of commentary that kept creeping up.

Damn! I now had uninvited guests who kept picking at me and questioning my stay.

From one idea to the next, things kept getting thru and challenging my every move of trying to stay focussed! So naturally, I got super impatient which weakened my zone even more.

For example, my usual noise would consist of…

My Border Patrol & Outpost Noise Report - Top 3 Assailants
  1. Ok, how long have I got left here?
  2. I’m bored and this sux! Hrm, I wonder what such and such is doing right now.
  3. If only I did things differently, earlier!

Also, an overflow from influences in the days or weeks before, i.e., from a TV show, a news event, social dilemma or dream product/service, these could all drift in making the split in the wall much, much bigger.

As soon one thing got thru, that was it… Anything else could easily slip in and destroy my ability to MAINTAIN FOCUS.

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