Next, as I’d see myself stumbling from border patrol duties from the negative inundation, before quitting, I would at least prepare a set of aiding ideas. I would at least try to call on something or another to help restore order and patch up my perimeter. So whenever the Lower Frequency had advanced or made ground, I could also summon Positive Reinforcement or a Higher Frequency to come in and save my day, by more or less sandbagging these dirty leaks.
However, the only unfortunate part… my positive which worked against the negative also totalled into the overall picture. Meaning, this busyness made it a mission for me to stay focused as I was so energy drained.
Greater Energy Spent on the Border Weakened My Focal Point
Lastly, as I’d work myself into a frenzy, I was ready to pull the plug once and for all. Being far too restless and statically charged from the variety of background commotion, I knew my time focussing on the issue was more or less done. In hindsight, what could have been a simple walking task turned into a fully-fledged operation instead.
Thoughts congested both ends of my mind as an arsenal of positivity bombarded my second-guessing and vice versa, all between a weak me and propped-up me that together only creates clouds of distraction. Lawless psychological activity ruled and roamed the pathways halting any valuable progress. Therefore my focus had long gone.
So by the time I made my way thru all the fluctuating monologue, which amounts to a dialogue or trialogue when including each inner party, the very last thing I want to do more of is to focus! My energy got taken off the centre, which means that every second becomes amplified, making it much harder to concentrate, translate and record the finer specs.