My Lacking Discipline Chart

To break it down into something simple, below is the order of pleasure where I lack a clear understanding

Pleasure Without Discipline

Let’s watch the sensation of life move…

Resistance > Attraction > Conversion > Resistance > Attraction and so on… (repeat)

Aka: Fear | Desire | Touch | Fear | Desire etc.

First, I desire a different state of mind thanks to the sense of time making things average and eventually, uncomfortable and resistful.

Next, I find thoughts and physics to help achieve this and reactions take place. Yay, I’m happy again as a combination of my imagination + stimulation from the outer world goes to work.

Following on, I attempt to maintain my position or add more fuel. In which case, Resistance inevitably comes in as fear since I can’t keep things intact…

My sensors are exhausted and I’m psychologically hungover!

I’m unable to recognise the state anymore as time normalises things.

Now highly agitated, I want DOUBLE the goodness back.

Also, as I see problems return, I automatically try to ignore them by calling in more pleasure: i.e., compensating-space or psychological augmentation. However, this too ends up failing after so many times and causes greater tension.

All-day and every day, this cycle of the mind repeats.


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