It’s time to hide from the clock and head to the clouds!
The Discreet ‘Force of Ignorance’ Redirecting My Attention Away From My Problems
When I have something on my mind and turn away, rather than face it and resolve it, I escape time. This is the one sure thing I hold a degree in and with honours.
As I reach my maximum PSI, something inside forces to me start looking for an escape. It’s been a while since I have had one, especially thanks to the compression, so that’s when I know that I’m definitely overdue! Next, I feel a calming sense of relief from what appears as ‘new scenery’ entering my life. But really, these are none other than my old memories which have refined themselves again to reproduce the appeal quality — a threshold drug.
An appropriate set of desirable projections have successfully carried a dose of the old influence again. There is not much else involved. It’s all done by my mind’s ability to re-dress or re-paint my ideas, then play them out so that I feel less compressed.
Thank God… I have found my short-term happiness again.
A makeover of the past helps me forget my ‘worries of time’ for a while. So naturally, I let the show go on for as long as I can. It’s anything that takes the immediate focus off the weight that I consider fresh and vibrant. Unfortunately, by this stage, I don’t care for the long term.
However, another part of me knows better and always had. Except, as always, I ignore all the signs…
Something behind says, Lee… you know you are only backlogging and it tries to forewarn me. But as per usual, I ignore it and get back to my warm fuzzy cloud.
Then, the unwanted voice pops up again, reminding me… Oi, these problems are only postponed and they will return soon!
But in my typical trancelike ignorance that saved me on every other occasion (or had it, really?), I arrogantly brush it all aside and happily accept the new recycled scene.
I allow more and more of these positive thoughts to trickle in and for as long I possibly can, or at least until all value gets spent from the appeal. At which time, there’s a loud knock at the door and reality wants to get paid in the form of ‘time’!
My aim inside this convenient escaped state is to stay avoiding time and forget my worries until life drags me back into the dense world of time.
Summing up My Ignorance
Hiding from the clock is a pattern of slowing down my pulse by subtly massaging the negatives with positive reinforcement, or by compensating one over the other. However today, I’m also well aware that I cannot hold time off forever because of its polarised nature.