When things get too much, I head up to the clouds of the mind taking full advantage of Free-flowing Time!
The Discreet Yet Powerfull ‘Force of Ignorance’ That Redirects My Attention Away From My Problems
When I have something on my mind and turn away from it, rather than face it and resolve it, I escape time. You see, the ‘thing’ that’s on my mind is ‘God-forsaken time’! Believe me… It’s the one sure thing I now hold a degree in and with honours.
As I reach a threshold or my maximum PSI, something inside urges me to seek out an escape or a way to relieve the pressure. It’s been a while since I last had one, or it especially feels that way thanks to the compression going on between my thoughts. Now, this is when I know that I’m definitely overdue to get on a cloud of sensational space and hover the hell outta here..!
Just before liftoff, my breathing begins to slow and I feel a calming sense of relief from what appears as ‘new scenery’ entering my life. But in reality, these are none other than ‘memorable moments’ which were refined again in order to reconstitute the appeal quality inside my brain. I guess we could also call it a threshold psychological drug that eventually helps me grow wings and fly away upon certain conditions.
On the back-backend (yes, you’ve read correctly), an appropriate set of desirable projections have successfully carried a dose of the old pleasant influence again. Really… There’s not much else involved. It’s all done by my mind’s ability to re-dress or re-paint my ideas, feeling them as they play out in a distraction so that I get the perception that I’m less compressed.
Thank God… I’m back to my short-term happiness again!
A makeover of the past helps me forget my ‘worries of time’ for a while, so I let the show go on for as long as I possibly can. I mean, why stop a good thing in its tracks? Naturally, it’s anything that takes the immediate focus off the ‘weight of time’ that I consider fresh and vibrant. By this stage, I don’t care for the long term.
However, another part of me knows better and always has. Except, as always, I ignore all the signs…
Something behind the scenes says, “Lee… you know you are only backlogging” and it tries to forewarn me. But as per usual, I ignore the message and get back to my cloud hovering distraction.
Then, the unwanted voice pops up again, reminding me… “Listen up! These problems are only postponed and they will return soon!”
But in my typical trancelike ignorance that saved me on every other occasion (or had it, really?), I arrogantly brush it all aside and happily accept the new recycled scene that stands before me.
I allow more and more of these positive thoughts to trickle in and for as long as I possibly can, or at least until all value gets spent from the appeal. At which time, there’s a loud knock at the door and the reality of my actions wants to get paid.
My aim inside this manic state of mind (Free-flowing time turned Escapism) is to keep avoiding the heaviness of time and forget my worries until life finally drags me back.
Summing up My Ignorance
Hiding from the clock is a pattern of slowing down my pulse by subtly massaging my negative perception with positive reinforcement, thereby compensating one over the other. However, today I’m well aware that I cannot hold the effects of positivity forever because of the polarised nature of time.
It’s a simple equation… If I grab hold of a good time, I’m bound to a bad time.