‘Sweet Blindness’ – Belief in My Creation, Construction & Destruction

As I would learn the hard way, any outstanding backlash from the weight of my beliefs might not hit for a while. It could hit today, tomorrow, or in another 5, 10, or more years within the big picture. Or in the next life, perhaps… Who really knows the fabric of the greater system? Ultimately, in my case, the surroundings served back a special surprise after too many years of living blind. Having acted from a line of ignorance and speculation while under the impression my behaviour was just because of juicy ideals that hit the spot, I had run up a hefty tab of consequence in the real world.

I won’t jump into it now because I like to surprise people with a sudden change of time when they least expect it (as you may well know by now), but I’ll give you an example of what I’m trying to explain.

Let’s say I take a step and call it ‘paving the path for myself and future generations’. But on the other end of this act, or at the backend, is an increasing trend to destroy or displace wildlife, add pressure to farmed-life, and I might also be hurting other people in faraway cultures thru a rippling effect when it is not a matter of survival or hard times — simply an expansion. Let alone any mental or physical health problems I help to create within my community by offering a short term fix at a hidden cost.

Short term fixes at long term costs run rampant on this planet. It’s becoming standard behaviour! Is it not?

And to top it off are the usual mounting elemental issues. Contaminated air, soil, water, etc., which I’m ignorant to because it’s two or three steps past my caring vision and away from me, like animals in a slaughterhouse. I’m sure everyone gets the picture. It’s our basic human activity that comes at a later cost — pollution, environment and climate change. We increase the conditions that spawn Zombies and then we have the audacity to lay the blame elsewhere!

Except, nowadays, it’s different for me. It’s finally my time to watch how I process my energy and not be a grub anymore, blindly living in a modern world that puts an automatic high demand on nature. YES, I live on the inside of a comfy bubble that always seeks an immediate realisation of these juicy ideas at whatever cost it takes!

We, the Civilised Superior, by Default Behaviour, Hurt the Inferior

Whatever is on the outside of our bubble is always up for the takings…

Therefore, I now watch the what, where, when and how I compose and decompose reality, eyeing my intakes and outputs to a larger degree (materials, emissions & waste). Reducing my demand doesn’t mean a mundane life. If anything, life opens up to me as I meet new exciting challenges and the rewards those challenges bring!

Previously, I didn’t care about any of these factors because I was either too busy enjoying myself in a trance-like state (me-me-me!), or rock bottom in an extreme low (still tied up in me!).


A later cost from basic human activity is often written off by the idea of death at old age, which brings relief to many because it means an open tab or something without consequence, mainly to those attached to a Sci-Tech God or when in anti-god mode. These people have accepted the perception of death to be the same as the actuality of death. That is, they view death as an end of experience altogether, a cessation of reality for the individual. The problem is that they reach this conclusion through observation, not experience, therefore they may be missing important information that would significantly change their perspective, and thus their behaviors.

I live ONCE as a freak of nature, then I’m forever gone. Someone else deals with it. Not me!

And so they settle into this limitation throughout their life and nothing can break their rock-solid belief of non-belief… The possibility of continuity is completely stripped from the equation and there is no more enquiry or need to learn.

But I ask myself… What is the nature of ‘someone else’? Is it not ultimately the same as the subject experiencer within me?

Therefore, I’m not convinced that declaring biological bankruptcy (dying) will cover my bill of ignorance or write anything off.

As I look up at night, there is an order in the stars. Not even the death of them will mean the end.

Our Deadly Creativity

To put it simply, I chose to travel the heavier, unconscious path earlier in my life. And from my limited perspective at the time I would see hope, glamour and beauty amid great changes about to happen in my ordinary world. Obviously, to construct something worthwhile will always require a level of destruction and can easily include death to gain other parts or clear out space. But if I can’t see too far on the backend, seeing only good things occurring, then I can ignore the size of the destruction taking place, justifying any cost as worthwhile for the limited version of joy inside my bubble of reality. This ignorance becomes the core of my belief system, a system I will want to trademark, wholesale and spread everywhere as I believe it will lead to happiness for all who get on board.

The danger is not in my personal destructive force. I’m human, I’ve now accepted the fact  I’m the deadliest creature on the planet that displaces nearly every other.  This despite being physically frail in terms of what else is in the jungle, since we don’t have sharp claws or strong jaws as mighty predators do. But often, when our minds combine, we’re absolutely lethal to some other being or species (if not to ourselves) that we’ve deemed insignificant or in the way.

So my problem (if I dare to see it) is this illusion I hold of ‘pure creativity’, one I’ll expand on like thriving cancer in a body. Are we not how these cells operate at the best of times in the modern world? A fast-expanding complex system demanding far more energy than others sharing the same host? To me, it’s obvious that in today’s crazy world, everyone is getting sucked into the VORTEX of this belief.

But why?

She is the mother force of ALL forces. 🌪️

Religious or not, nearly all of us want a bigger piece of the diminishing cake and with more space for our ways! Only a very few want to preserve their ways while keeping to themselves.

We Want to Super-Expand Ourselves but Without Paying the Bill at the So-Called End of Life!

However, soon there’ll be little left as we regenerate back into our children or perhaps as something else, being inserted into one timeline or another based on the chemical reactions we’ve made throughout our life that obviously have rippling effects. As speculative as it sounds, this is how I’m now starting to view it all. Because of this ‘possibility’ notion that I can’t stamp out, I’m lead to believe that we might be acting through character after character in a huge revolving biological game or something of the like. And if this is true, it would mean that we are essentially the flame that gets handed on from one person to the next (which is not necessarily limited to the chronological order that we would assume through our children in this lifetime).

Therefore, it is in my best interest that I at least SEE the broader processes I’m responsible for if I am to continue with my ways. My ways, mind you, that might not fit in with your ways, or Life’s ways. Because if I do, I might respond with more care and look after things in and around the nest better. I might be more conscious of any excess byproducts that spill out and prioritise my investment back into nature, to ensure that the show continues playing on with plenty of room to breathe first and foremost. Seriously… it’s a small price to pay to reroute my energy into sustaining the life that gives life to my beliefs (materials, animals and plants) before my urge to expand takes over and I end up consuming every last ‘resource’ available.

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