Without question, my biggest motivator of all time was extreme fear. Thankfully, that’s now downgraded to a manageable system (but not before leaving a mark behind). After a line of troubling behaviour escalating from a kid, this ultimately led to my downfall/explosion I have been touching on throughout this website.
Ok, who am I kidding? It’s riddled everywhere…
So my god then put me in another room with other delinquents and special people. 🙈
In 2010, my potent mix of behaviour ended up hitting the nail on the head and society unconventionally excommunicated me thru the secret back door. Which also felt like forever since landing inside a Severe Time Compression Field. It’s a warp that turns a minute into a much longer frame of time.
It Was Full On
Basically, I became next level unwell in a matter of days and tripped hard without a clear end date. As a result, I landed in a nuthouse in no time, and in a creepy way.
From what I remember, I was accompanied by a dark force that was unlike anything I’ve ever experienced before. I tried to differentiate the real events from delusion, the poison from water, but it was tough since it all appeared so real. I was flicking between realities but kept the same narrative.
In short, I felt that I was at the end of my road as everyone immediately turned against me. Admittedly, it was deserving at the time.
Lee, there’s no one here to help you. Expect only bad things to happen from now on!
Interestingly, I have always come back from a dose of drugs regardless of the concoction back in the day. But definitely not this time. In 2010, I got booted out of Time and Space and went to the outskirts of reality where I only just managed to grip onto something. Therefore, this special elixir or God’s delicacy for me turned my life upside down. No one could ever anticipate such a change of scenery. 🤯
Whatever entered my system in 2010 packed a punch I wasn’t ready for.
To put into perspective, over five calendar years (I wasn’t in a ward for anywhere near that long), I experienced a quarter of a century, which is why I’m still out of synch.
So naturally, I’ve been tidying up the secret back door on the low, so I don’t end up there again. Otherwise, I am to send in other people who have escaped the conventional front door if that’s what it takes to gain firm ground.
Either way you look at it, I’m just happy that right now my signal is clear! 📡
Consequently, it’s taken immense mental and emotional effort along with crucial contrasting space (slowing the up & downing over the years) to undo the magnitude of what I got myself into. And even with most of my mess cleared up, this undoing is still underway. I’m still dissolving remnants that I feel tight around my head and neck.
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