If left unchecked, constantly processing thoughts in exchange for heightened sensation puts unnecessary weight on my conditioning/psyche. Yes, it’s that simple! Growing up, I was told that I only had one life which I now know holds no fact!
How on Earth do we know that ‘one life’ is true? How can I be sure that I won’t wake up somewhere else?
Naturally under such belief, why not then cram as many thoughts in as possible to the surface of my mind while I’m here? Because if I don’t, I’ll miss out since it won’t happen again.
Polarising & Depolarising
In my mind, when I play with positives, I get stung with negatives back and forth. Obviously, most can manage the split in a convenient divide, or without too much bother. But I’m not most. So, what I need instead is a little space in between to catch a quick breath or two as a way to start backing off.
You see, I’m now aware that polarity will have its day if I don’t pull up on my habits soon. My investment into re-running stories, refining images over and over for a greater outcome or potential experience to occur (when really I’m after tastier psychological conversions), does none other than create a complex system of belief.
Complications occur when letting conversions from ideas and ideals run overly wild.
Braking vs Defusing
So if there’s no slowing or releasing my thoughts, I hold little discipline when processing. My rogue mind ultimately exhausts a positive into a negative.
But I’m not suggesting that I use the brakes of thought by pushing things away. It took some time, but I now clearly see that countering or resisting only adds ‘more story’ on top of the one’s already playing.
Whatever story plays out makes little difference. Why? It is still my unreal world taking too much energy!
Instead, only from a firm understanding as to why I should cease each movement will I finally have the vital energy needed to release the bulk of my dirty thinking. By seeing the detriment in both my continuation and suppression (by redirecting my thoughts with others) will things fundamentally change. Therefore it is a simple matter of negating my way thru life.
Previously, more thought was the only answer in my old way, and I couldn’t stop myself from thinking no matter how hard I tried! On autopilot, I would always chase down the perfect refinement that would hit the spot in the fastest and easiest route.