Again, let’s say I hadn’t entirely understood something of interest and felt a bugging sense of incompletion, along with my desire to conquer or map it out.
After the experience and by my typical impulse, I’d hunt incessantly for the next connecting piece of the understanding puzzle. Except, it was far too often from within the archives/records, as I’d already laid out. Or better put, rather than I allow new experiences to freshen things up, I’d stay scratching the same old itch by indulging in episode reruns. It was an obsession that halted progress by more or less adding a dirty filter.
Over the last decade, my field of interest shifted towards the world of psychology and it’s now where most of my energy goes. I suppose you could say it was my late calling or blooming. But it is also a solid one that suits my built-in bits and pieces.
On the other hand, however, and in the less appealing vast technical world, or in a world that processes relationships between material things, is a place I’d often struggle with unless it had to do with bare basics or something that played a larger role in life from closer and more frequent exposures. Where, naturally, an attraction grew.
The Technical Field
<Begin My Technical Understanding>
Technical knowledge covers mountains of info, and I don’t have enough years left to learn it all, nor even a small portion. Plus I don’t want to! However, of the little I know, there are times I need to revert to the archives and often to dig deep on remembering an issue
For instance, a lack of appeal meant that I took only a superficial snapshot rather than grasping the clearer details as a particular event played out: i.e., an overwhelming sense of resistance interfered with my learning/recording, and I produced a lousy photo or movie that got thrown into the trash end of my mind.
My internal chattering built up into heavy resistance and my energy got taken from ‘the seeing’ as I was fixing my bike under frustrations: i.e., I was clouded or fogged up, preoccupied at the time.
In other words, I learnt by an unnatural demand as a greater effort was needed (I didn’t want to, but I had to!), and wasn’t at a place of natural ground to cleanly/clearly process the information detailing the adjustment. Which should have also included the recorded measurement I’d need later on.
A Cleaner Intake
When I forcefully search my mind for one tiny impression so that I remember a measurement similar to the above example, sometimes it feels hopeless, like I’m salvaging thru the junk. If I pull it up a few years later and without too much fuss, that’s perfect, I can’t complain. However, I don’t see much learning involved. I’m basically recording, like a camera. Though obviously, I do need to know where I’ve put the tape.
Oops, it went in the trash again! 🚮
Think of the game Trivia (something I completely suck at!). When looking closely, we’ll notice that the winners usually carry a strong appeal quality matching most of the questions laid out. Obviously. Unless however, certain topics were drilled in by parents and peers, and the info is ingrained forever, whether we all like it or not!
But usually, a healthier appeal quality (tamed positivity and less resistance/clouds) clears the stage and allows a greater or cleaner intake of information.
When optimised, I’m able to recall records of ‘numbers’, ‘symbols’ and ‘words’ with greater ease, or without digging thru too much crap!
<End My Technical Understanding>
Disciplining the appeal quality (slowing down that positive replay!) is what made a huge difference between a sharp, simple understanding and a complex one relying on intense recollecting. It was because the loop from attraction to resistance had lost strength. Which also means that the vice versa naturally occurs.
Today, I’m better equipped to learn onwards and open new revelations from less processing. Also, I can recall things of value faster from a cleaner intake, such as important measurements.
Therefore, the technical world, in general, became easier to understand and manage.