I’m not that good at maths. However, I’ve had to learn and take another approach at life for the sake of my sanity. 😌
Is ‘becoming better’ more or less? Did I seriously need to refine my thoughts and behaviour, which, equates to, ‘more’ mental activity? Or, were my cogs far too complicated and needed slowing? Did they require a quality of ‘less’ for once in life? Except, not by more-ing, as per usual?
Also, was I basing my idea of Better off a dynamic collective image or a fast-changing environment I was to conform to, for an approval?
Was I trying (continuing) to meet an expectation from a culture or subculture by continually refining myself, bending and turning with the tide around me (or a perceived tide that wasn’t accurate)?
And once I had conformed (which I automatically do when investing in ‘becoming better’), how was I to handle or dispose of the unworthy byproducts that were bound to spill?
Now here’s the thing
1) I’m conditioned to move one way due to both my good and bad traits picked up (the acquired), and 2) my nature also drives in its own way (the built-in). Then lastly, 3) I try to keep it all together and tamed in close trajectory. However, there is now a sluggish byproduct because of all the energy spent from not travelling in a straight line.
My Combined Nature & Conditioning Is the Driving Fact About Me
The driving fact is the REAL / COMPLETE me. Whereas ‘becoming better’ is counterfeit.
Becoming better is an opposite in an ideal (otherwise I wouldn’t need it) and it will always require greater effort to keep picture-perfect. Unfortunately, after a short while, I can’t help but relax back into my imperfect non-better skin and let the hair down, as does everyone. Which I only allow a few to see.
So, was I, like many others, to keep exporting my not-so-better ¾ part to myself, only? Was I to continue this 25% effortly-charged better part/charade for the camera while another 75% stayed unbetter, quietly? Or should I simply add more seats on my panel to try and even up the score? Even though it always complicates?
These are the confronting questions I’ve asked myself as I stayed close to the facts about me.
Perhaps something is built in at the roots, DNA, or nature, far beyond my comprehension that helps everything eventually fall into place. But today I see it’s only when I get out of the way or off the panel that something opens up my greatest strength.
Congratulations! The Mindless Introduction Is Now Installed
You’ve now rewired and strengthened your psyche!
- Meaning ✔
- Unconventional ✔
- Commentators ✔
- Betterment ✔
Wow. You’ve made it this far thru my complicated mindly network, and it’s only the beginning. Well done! 👏 See, the New Mindless Meaning wasn’t so hard to unravel after all.
Please clear the cache as there is no need to hold onto these setup files/ideas, and continue on.