Intro ‘Betterment’ Disc 12: Is Being Better an Addition or Subtraction?

I wasn’t the best at maths growing up. However, I’ve had to learn and take another approach at life for the sake of my own sanity.

Is ‘becoming better’ more or less? Did I seriously need to refine my thoughts and behaviour, which equates to ‘more’ mental activity? Or, was my mental processor far too complicated and needed slowing? Did it require a stronger quality of ‘less’ for once? Which means, not using the usual ‘more-ing the less into me’ tactic?

Also, was I basing my ‘idea of Better’ off of a dynamic collective image in a fast-changing environment that I was to conform to in order to gain everyone’s approval?

Was I trying (continuing) to meet an expectation from a culture or subculture by continually refining myself, bending and turning with the tide around me? Or a perceived tide that wasn’t all that accurate or in line with others?

And, once I had conformed, which I do automatically when psychologically investing in anything (in this case, in ‘becoming better’), how am I to handle or dispose of the unworthy byproducts that are bound to spill?

I found that when I restrict certain behaviours from flowing because I’m near someone or a group of people who only know me one way, then this means that I am divided. And believe me, I’m still divided into several realities today!

Though I’m less divided, thanks to the new backward equation opening up another dimension!

Now Here’s the Thing…

First, I’m conditioned to move a certain way due to both my good and bad traits that I picked up (the acquired). Second, my nature also drives in its own way (the built-in). As a result of both, I try to keep everything together and tamed in a close trajectory. However, there is now a sluggish byproduct because of all the energy spent from not travelling in a straight line.

Point A to B
I was once the red line who was ‘becoming better’.

Naturally, I began letting go of the conventional method and allowed a new, cleaner merging of the two movements to take place (the acquired & built-in).

Who would have thought that I only needed to knock the ‘becoming’ well out of ‘becoming better’?

My Combined Nature & Conditioning Is the Driving Fact About Me

In other words, the driving fact about me is the REAL / COMPLETE me — the full spectrum. Whereas ‘becoming better’ is counterfeit…

Becoming better is an opposite in an ideal (otherwise I wouldn’t need it), and it will always require greater effort to keep picture-perfect. Unfortunately, after a short while, I can’t help but relax back into my imperfect non-better skin and let the hair down, as does everyone. Which, I only allow a few to see.

So was I, like many others, to keep exporting my not-so-better ¾ part to myself only? Was I to continue this 25% effortly-charged better part/charade for the camera while another 75% stayed unbetter, quietly? Or should I simply add more seats on my panel to try and even up the score, even though it always complicates my situation?

These are the confronting questions I still ask myself as I stay close to the facts about me.

Perhaps something is built-in at the roots, DNA, or nature, far beyond my comprehension that helps everything eventually fall into place. But today I see it’s only when I get out of the way or off the panel that my greatest strength begins to open up.

Congratulations! The Mindless-Ware Introduction Is Now Installed

Great Work. You’ve strengthened your psyche and have entered into Level 2!

  • Meaning ✔
  • Unconventional ✔
  • Commentators ✔
  • Betterment ✔

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Wow! You’ve made it this far thru my complicated mindly network. Well done! 👏 See, the New Mindless Meaning wasn’t so hard to unravel after all. However, this part was only the beginning…

Now, please clear the cache as there is no need to hold onto these setup files/ideas, and continue on.

Next, we’ll head into the Mindfulling Realm. Let’s update this traditional component to gain even more strength.

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