Disc 4: My Identification Complex

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Q. Is ‘being mindless’ about reducing my internal pressure to an optimal level?

A. Yes and no. It’s complicated. First, I’ll start with the ‘no’ part.

Let’s Slowly Uncomplicate the Situation

First, I don’t want to be an idea and conform to its content, which is what I do when I house myself into an idea.

By becoming ‘something’, in this case, ‘Mindless’, I’m attaching my energy to the content inside that idea, opening up the gates for a likely bombardment from other thoughts that can easily inflate/worship my new home-kingdom AND deflate/destroy it on the other end.

As I found that when one side plays out which I usually don’t mind as I become king of the mountain, the other wasn’t too far away, which I did mind since it meant being at the bottom of the barrel! And what I don’t like most is when people break my sacred religion, or when I’m CRUMBLING down in broken ego (which is a broken holy-home or decimated podium).

So, the short answer is no.

No, I don’t want to be anything (or if I must, I’ll be as little as possible) because I burn my energy into a mix of unnecessary positive and negative fluctuations that affect my behaviour.  Sure, I would love all the positive sensation, but not at the cost of crippling resistance now that I’m aware of what is going on.

Untangling From the Idea

So, no to me being ‘mindless’ or anything, then identifying, attaching and conforming while worshipping and defending mental images in a competitive unreal world. Unfortunately, we all now live in a world where everyone fights for control over the narrative in a game-like environment. We highlight only some features for our own benefit, but then we suppress or deflect from the other undesirable, weaker parts in order to gain the advantage.

I have learnt that when I glorify things or aspects in general, I leave myself open. The overwhelming sensation acts as a filter and I block any information that might take it away from me. Therefore, keeping this trance-like state makes me feel alive and strong.

And when I’m under the influence of ‘trance’, I’m more susceptible and sensitive to the negative projectiles from either what I or SOMEONE ELSE shoots back in the consequential thinking — also known as the attacking overflow. Yes, if it’s not someone else attacking me with stronger features that I find extremely hurting when comparing against my narrative, it’s myself doing it in an internal war. So, ‘glory’, at least when it goes beyond a practical dose, if such a dose exists, is a process that does me no good and gets in the way.

You see when I’m heavily invested in the imagination and someone attacks my mindless ‘home’, ‘symbol’ or ‘bible’, or finds a crack in it, or shows me something stronger in their idea makings (and they will!), I’ll spend considerable energy in plugging-up my perceived flaws.

I’ll continuously fix it, protect it, hold it up and cherish it, etc., so I don’t get hurt anymore. Not to mention all the rockets that I’ll fire off towards you in my retaliation.

So as the idea gets hurt, I’M HURT! Can’t you see that this is what ‘identifying’ is capable of? In becoming an energy sucker….

All my life, I was told that my power was in identifying. But it’s so far from the truth in another backward revelation!

Depressed man

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Simplifying My Identification Process

Let’s do one last go-over on everything…

Again, I’m no longer interested in continuing my old-ways where the mechanical nature of my mind incessantly overinflates ‘words’, ‘symbols’ and ‘images’ that are claimed as an extension of me. And it is all for the usual reward of psychological stimuli (mind candy) that will soon flip to fear.

Unfortunately, within this habit, the quality of such reward which is supposed to move me forward in life, does none other than appeal to my ego and I fly off on a stale high. Then, or not long after, things shatter into pieces as something inside gets hurt. Therefore I end up moving every which way, except forward.

Basically, I am weakened over the long run since taking these invisible making of myself and others, way too seriously. I give away too much of my power for no good reason. But mistakenly, I see a good reason 😕!

Ultimately, my energy gets clogged up in a cycle, and I worship PLUS defend all these words/symbols/representations to death, destroying any real value.

However… Now Comes the Yes Part (Finally)!

Yes, I want to understand the deeper meaning behind Mindless or Mindlessing and use its strength.

I want to see past the mechanical nature that organises any word or symbol ‘idea’ based on rewards and punishments.

So yes, I’m going to understand my internal pressures as the invisible forces that control my system, but without gripping onto the word which hinders me.

Therefore, the simple message is… don’t take ‘being mindless’ seriously. Otherwise, I’ll put unnecessary pressures on my mechanics while becoming attached. Because if it’s not one idea, it’ll be another, another and another.

Perhaps living mindlessly or I’m mindlessing. Or just, lessing-along-in-life… is the better way to put it. It’s something not as serious.Living battery

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