When my mind is clear or my thoughts have an optimal charge, I exist free from the shackles of Time in a heavenly homeostasis. Yet, if my attention is hijacked by the strong magnetic pull of pleasure or fear tied to the past or future, I slip into either a Free-Flowing or Distressed Sense of Time. Essentially, my Sense of Time inherits a positive or negative charge equal to the charge in my thoughts.
On one end, I’m magnificently LOST—far, far away from the dreaded Default/Negative Time.
Ahh, yeah… I’m in awe again. I’m deep inside Positive Time Territory as my surface thoughts have established a strong connection to my brain’s reward centre. I love floating in the good stuff, having also escaped that annoying reality of longer and harder felt time by putting a problem or two aside.
What can I say? Other than, I’m just having a good time, and that time is flowing freely in this state, without complication or issue. That is until I hold onto it for too long, and the laws of Time and Space take over. In which case…
Distressed Sense of Time: Stuck in the Heavy Stuff
At the other end, I’m STUCK to Time. Anxiety takes over as I lose sight of Positive Time.
Oh crap, I’ve slipped back into the heavy stuff again. I call it Distressed Time because old fears and worries reattach themselves to my brain’s fear centre—sometimes at lightning speed.
For example, maybe there’s an upcoming meeting I’m dreading due to past experiences, or something suddenly shows up that screams ‘danger.’ Either way, unwelcome memories or abrupt confrontations cause resistance in my mind, triggering a Distressing Sense of Time.
The Laws of Balance: Finding Stability
Based on the laws of Time & Space, if I cling to positive thought patterns too long, I crash and burn—like coming off a sugar or caffeine high. In that moment, Time flips from Free-Flowing to Distressed because all my energy was used up in an almost manic state. When my sensors overload and I run out of positive energy, the suppressed issues resurface, and the resulting mental fatigue makes time feel slow and compressed, refusing to flow naturally. This is one of those cases where too much of a good thing can have devastating results.
Consider the pleasure and fear centres as two glands in the brain, working together to maintain emotional equilibrium. By abusing pleasurable memories (Positive Time), I risk desensitising myself long-term while simultaneously becoming extra sensitive to fear-based memories (Negative Time). I’ll seek out bigger and better highs, registering fresh pleasures into memory to satisfy my ever-changing taste buds. On the flip side, I become less rational and more easily overwhelmed by new hurdles, draining my energy and clouding my judgment.
That’s why I now tread lightly on the pleasure gland, aiming for quality over quantity in how I live. Otherwise, I might become an extreme pendulum always swinging between past and future, between highs and lows.
The Danger of Escapism
In a past life, I used escapism for my problems, making the Free-Flowing (Positive) label my default Time. But eventually, nature countered my manic condition with a full-blown crash. But that eventually changed after the laws of nature kicked in to counter my manic condition once and for all. I hit a tipping point, faced mental turmoil, and then experienced a transition period that ushered in Mindless 2.0, bringing order and balance through a deeper understanding of Time.
All in all, I discovered that jumping abruptly from a dark, cramped space into the light—using a ritual or some quick fix—only delays dealing with my real issues. It reroutes negative energy into a temporary positive sensation, letting the negative fester and grow, so that it’s even worse when I finally have to face it. I’m still a bit annoyed at myself for taking so long to learn this lesson!
Back in the day, I’d always bury my negative perceptions under pleasant distractions, and in doing so, I unwittingly kept my own problems locked in Time.