My world said that if I don’t focus properly, I won’t achieve my objective.
But what did they mean by ‘properly’?
Was it so that I process detailed knowledge along a specific line in order to gain strength? While also maintaining STRICT behaviour to keep the activation alive and steady?
Yet the times I did try and stay focussed, I was far from contained. In most cases, I’d hear the sound of a clock ticking louder and louder as if something annoying tore straight thru my barricade and entered into my zone. And it wasn’t the actual steady ticks that I knew while sitting in a small quiet room with one hanging above. Rather, this noise was electrified by a negative charge. An impatient type of running commentary really started buzzing in my mind.
In my weakened focus zone, I had uninvited guests who kept picking at me and questioning my stay. One tense thought after another kept getting thru and challenging my every move of trying to stay focussed. Naturally, it wasn’t long before I got super impatient which weakened the zone even more.
For example, the usual noise from the Assailants would consist of:
As soon as one message got through, that was it. Come one, come all. Anything else could easily slip in and destroy my ability to maintain focus.