The Focus Complex

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My world said that if I don’t focus properly, I won’t achieve my objective.

But what did they mean by properly?

Was it so that I process detailed knowledge along a specific line in order to gain strength? While also maintaining STRICT behaviour to keep the activation alive and steady?

Yet the times I did try and stay focussed, I was far from contained. In most cases, I’d hear the sound of a clock ticking louder and louder as if something annoying tore straight thru my barricade and entered into my zone. And it wasn’t the actual steady ticks that I knew while sitting in a small quiet room with one hanging above. Rather, this noise was electrified with a negative charge. It turned into a picky type of running commentary that kept creeping up.

In my zone, I now had uninvited guests who kept picking at me and questioning my stay.

From one idea to the next, one tense thing after another kept getting thru and challenging my every move of trying to stay focussed! So naturally, it wasn’t long before I got super impatient which weakened my zone even more.

For example, the usual noise from the Assailants would consist of:

Border Patrol Activity Report: Top 3 Assailants
  1. Ok, how long have we got left here?
  2. This is boring and sux! I wonder what such and such is doing right now.
  3. If only I did things differently, earlier!

Also, an overflow from influences in the days or weeks before, i.e., from a TV show, a news event, social dilemma or a desired product or service, these could all drift in making the split in the border much, much bigger.

As soon as one message got through, that was it… Come one, come all. Anything else could easily slip in and destroy my ability to maintain focus.