Even though I had developed the ability to manage my schizophrenic mind, I felt there must be something better. After a lifetime of weakening myself with my constant switching back and forth from one mindset to another, I can remember beginning to take my thoughts and set-ways far more seriously, too seriously in fact.
I would snub an opposing view on something I felt strongly about even though it was backed by a solid piece of logic or reason that I hadn’t previously seen or accepted. Like a stubborn old man, I couldn’t help reacting staunchly to it. The meal that I felt got thrown in my face simply wasn’t on my menu, which meant I wanted no piece of it, regardless of how good it was for me in the long term. I only wanted to eat food that fit in with my particular diet and set-ways that had managed to ingrain over the years.
My exposure to Collective Narrative Neurosis growing up means that I will also end up taking less important thoughts way too seriously, while stuff that I should take with more care gets overlooked. All up, this attempt to ignore all but one way of thinking inevitably creates a certain type of collective ignorance. Unfortunately, I can’t escape this ‘ignorance’ no matter how hard I try. It is transmitted from all angles in all generations across at least one aspect or another.
Fortunately, by seeing this clearly, much of the ‘trying’ from ‘trying to be less ignorant’ has been downsized, which is my best outcome at the end of the day. I can happily say that I’m now a less ignorant human than I was a decade ago. Still, each of us needs to accept that we all live in a land of opposites with set-ways, or else stay on our own side of the invisible line between ‘us and them’, and keep begging nature for only one type of nourishment to enter over and keep our mind, body, and space abundant.
After so much self-created and generational-byproduct conflicting BS in my life, it’s only in recent times that I decided enough was enough, having reached a tipping point and deciding to make a serious change. Meanwhile, it seems everyone else has given up on learning about what life on a deeper level really means, choosing to stay in their heavily fortified corner instead.
Bottom Line
Today, as I take my thoughts far less seriously, it’s easier to flow between each zone and compass point of my mind. I can flick the ‘chill switch’ much smoother than ever before. Whereas previously, and under my older visor (I can’t say that it’s 100% completely gone), it got to the point where I would disregard factual-based knowledge and other essential things: i.e., law, morals, respect, etc. I now have a better handle on where to draw the line between ‘chilling out’ and ‘rebelling against the system’.
So I say a big thank you and goodbye to an ancient old hand-me-down tactic from the various influences I latched onto that expects the same ways to continue in a new, modern world that is trying to bring it all together. This also means there are fewer behavioural shifts throughout different times of the day and week to accommodate the different ingrained ways.