Holding Space

Whenever I hold onto a certain state for as long as I can, I live my life in fragments. I’m avoiding the heaviness of time, or ‘negative time’ until something drags me back. I prefer staying in ‘positive time’ because, seriously, who doesn’t love an escape? Who wouldn’t like a release of tension and anxiety when there’s a massive build-up?

By maintaining one level or density of space, I eventually call in another opposite state. No doubt, this is why I was always up & down in a previous life!

{Fragments & Time}

What are Fragments?
Whether in technology, demography, geography or psychology, fragments are all the same. They are broken up things, spaces and aspects. Fragmentation in the psych world divides my behaviour, groups various relationships in life, and I act according to each block.

Plus, the more I escape time in ignorance to its effects ( -/+/-/+ ), the greater the divide reflects in me.

For this reason, I live my life as a holidaymaker, continually crossing state lines.

Time

Keeping time at arm’s length is the absolute key for my escaping because that’s where all my problems are, in a battle between Yesterday and Tomorrow. In a showdown between what was ‘then’ and what lays ‘ahead’.

When my attention moves away from a cluttered region of my mind (a problem) instead of working through the mess (by staying in direct contact — resolving), it means I’ve packed my bags and ran off. I’ve shifted and sheltered to a less dense spread out area, aka a serene place with plenty of space. Or I’ve moved into my lighter fragment in favour of living in positive time.

But after clearly seeing that I was taking on more trips than usual and with extra running around, it gave the incentive to move in an odd but most fortunate way. By now seeing the bigger picture, I naturally took the sanest route over the long-haul as it was my only way out. Or I soon gave considerable attention to a lifestyle of scattered steps taken, unwinding in an entirely fresh way. I didn’t stay focused on finding better ones to put in-place-of.

Again, I should’ve known better earlier. I live in a bi-polar world that attracts and repels by nature. Having moved away from a relationship breakdown, crisis or challenge of any kind, even my best effort couldn’t hold my most practised/favoured escape for long. Regrettably, I returned to the dense scene in absolutely no time.

Hence, all the running around (up & down).

These Fragments Are Spaces – Understanding SPACE Within Time & Space

By cushioning myself into another relaxed state or lighter region where time was neither felt nor taken seriously  since my attention was basically stoned or in another world meant new breeding ground for attachments to thrive. I waved the magic wand and blew glitter in between my problems. But as always, they’d reappear, thanks to this annoying yet super reliable force, gravity. Not only that, life felt increasingly difficult to deal with since I got so weakened down by the long-line of hangovers.

Who would’ve guessed that Time & Space were so entwined into one another, such team players?

By my habit of pulling in space of this nature,  a temporary shield,  I’d simultaneously push time out/away. Time implied as all my haunts and annoyances. However, always only until life served it back in another round. Except, from a slightly stronger hand.

Zooming-In on Time

Time has a few interpretations on this network, but as you should know by now is generally implied as a negative. Also, since it is undoubtedly significant all-up, it has its own section that explains everything I’ve understood, so far. I more or less detail time in variants/systems/subsystems and tell how each play out in me. However, in the above case when I say ‘neither felt nor taken seriously’, it might sound like I’m describing the timeless, but I’m not. Here’s why:

This mentioned state of timelessness is  my discreet tendency to ignore what implied time is telling me,  as I use a positive to press against or suppress the negative. Or, to put another way, I call this process: the pretend present or tainted timeless.

But, unless one is time savvy at the core, then it’s hard to understand. Especially at first glance. Because, when I’m used to escaping time’s paddle, it means I rely on converting positive time, an act that produces space-like sensations I’d call ‘the timeless’,  in a misinterpretation. 

Confused??

Escaping Time’s Paddle, means, I use a positive ‘+’ yesterday/tomorrow relief valve (or temporary suppression) to counter the negative ‘-’ yesterday/tomorrow pressurisation.

Except my release often gets confused as ‘the timeless’. I think I’m Timeless 🤩

Today, my newer Time insight plays a stronger role. I’ve optimised! 😀

For more info, head over to the Time & Space section.

{/Fragments & Time}


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