Buying My Time (With the Help of Space)

By cushioning myself into another relaxed state or lighter region where time was neither felt, heard or taken seriously,  since my attention was basically stoned or in another world,  it meant I had created a new breeding ground for attachments to thrive. I waved the magic wand and blew glitter in-between my problems. But, as always, they would reappear thanks to this annoying yet super reliable force, gravity within the mind. Not only that, but my life felt increasingly difficult to deal with since I was so weakened by my life-long mental exhaustion, or the hangovers I got from overusing or abusing the medicine of my mind, which is too much artificial space and serene time.

Who would have guessed that time and space were so entwined into one another, such team players?

Through my habit of pulling in a lighter or floatier space as a temporary shield, I had simultaneously pushed the dense sense of time away. That is, all my haunts and annoyances were no longer heard or seen with my mind’s eye. However, it was always only until life served them back in another round. Except, then it was dealt from a slightly stronger hand each time, compounding even more weight than before into my state of mind.

Zooming-In on Time

Time has a few interpretations on this network, but as you should know by now it is generally implied as a negative (more often than not, Time sux!). Also, since it is undoubtedly significant all-round, this is why it has its own section that explains everything I have understood so far. I more or less detail time in systems, subsystems and variants, and I tell how each plays out in me.

However, in the above case when I said that time was neither felt, heard or taken seriously — being in a positive frame instead, it might sound like I’m describing the timeless, but I’m not and here’s why…

This state of positively charging time (to the point of a stoned attention) is actually my discreet tendency to ignore and cover up what the generally-implied haunts of time are telling me. Therefore, I use and exploit the positive side of time to press against or suppress the negative side of time. Instead of calling this the ‘timeless’, which in the mainstream world implies an altered state of mind on the high or superior end of the scale, it’s more in line with the ‘pretend present’ or ‘tainted timeless’ state of mind.

Yet unless one is time savvy at the core (which you will be by the time you reach the end of this website), then all this may be hard to understand, especially at first glance. Because when I am used to escaping time’s paddle, it means that I rely on converting positive time, which is an act that produces space-like sensations that I would call the ‘timeless’  in a misinterpretation. 

Still Confused??

Let’s summarise it…

Escaping time’s paddle means that I will use a positively charged [+] yesterday/tomorrow relief valve or temporary suppression to counter the negatively charged [-] yesterday/tomorrow pressurisation.

Except…. in the earlier days, my relief would often get confused as the ‘timeless’:

Hey guys, I’m in the timeless! 🤩 (when really… I’m stoned in the makings of positive time.)

Today, this new mental Time and Space insight plays a stronger role in my life when I’m Mindfulling on the side. 💪


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