When my projections give off a noticeable mix of sensation in a lifestyle pattern, in stronger waves that affect me every day, it says I’m highly refining my thoughts. I’m in the habit of rapidly-processing as I strip away at the periphery (both the boring stuff in my memories AND I ignore a larger number of important objects/symbols in the outer-world) while hunting for something juicier.
All my life, I over-zoomed-in on things while ignoring others for that extra buzz. I got addicted to a sense of inflation and expansion from a lifetime of not understanding my thoughts.
My Psychological Conditioning isn’t easy to monitor, at first. Its gradual movement takes over, and I’m ingrained towards a particular direction.
In a mode of tasty thinking conditioned over time, I created a Sensation Driven Reality. A reality overwhelmingly based on sensations derived from my thoughts, or from overblown-superficial words and symbols that lived on as ‘invested objects’ inside my mind. The scales tipped as I gave more and more value to a short term surge in a long-term narrative while disregarding simple but vital facts due to my new habit and motto of ‘touch comes first’ or ‘conversion comes first’.
It is an addiction I must also protect from the polarised nature of our planets law.
Living a tremendously positive life for an odd-mind meant that I would also spend extra on keeping a watchful eye on the negatives because I didn’t want any disruptions near my pristine portfolio.I didn’t want anyone coming in and breaking my God-like ideals that had kept me going for so long!
Yet, eventually this itself turned to great fear, regardless of whatever else popped up. Therefore I’d ALWAYS attract this irritating contrast on one end of life before stumbling/crawling my way back!