Lastly, it is all about -Balance- before wrapping up Part 4 and moving onto My Concepts (the very last ‘Thinking Structure’ part).

When it comes to finding a middle ground in my life today, I ask myself the following question.

Do I create a balance out of my corrupted programming? Out of my contaminated system that might easily accept and run influences that carry hidden costs because I’m still too blinded? Or, do I stay with the non-balance and watch my programming at home before anything else?


Balance is for the idealist and for anyone who can pull it off and work with both short and long term conscious stabilisation, can reprogram themselves and live happily, I say well done. However, primarily, it is not for me anymore. Finding pleasant stories to fix the unpleasant ones has now seconded in my world, that’s if there’s any room for them.

The non-balance, on the other hand, now this tells me everything I need to know in terms of my fluctuations that throw me off. Or my everyday cycling thru an array of sensation that radicalised over the years.

You see when I started regularly measuring my senses on the larger scope, on all my actions and ongoing reactions, something happened at a profound level. My desire to consciously stabilise the negatives dropped back as I was too intrigued with greater processes and seeing the symmetry between my internal and external worlds.

For the first time, I watched my relationship between me and you, and all the animals, plants and elements, in-depth. Meaning, the usual stories that played out to make me happier for a short while, held less value and faded.

Instead, the story of the Mindless or the broader field with stronger meaning naturally took over.

Is the same happening to you?

I hope so.

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