Us, Highly Sensitive, we often live in a magical but unknown-to-many perceived land. Although when you place a camera on our actual life, the reality might look more like this.
When I look back at my history, I see that the sense of time was the number one card for determining my overall sensitivity. Meaning, time, as this draining chatter between Yesterday and Tomorrow (Memories & Refinements), which, also led to a major obstacle affecting my drive, concentration and focus, when trying to blend in with the conventional world.
Time kept penetrating the containment field (are we there yet! Are we there yet!), some of which was the response to the many odd layers of static shooting over from the far background. I.e. I perceive something in the periphery, it instantly records into echoing memory, and I further respond with more chatter.
Please don’t interrupt my sitting here; I’m super busy!
By nature, I can’t help but always look deeper into things. I still sometimes get overwhelmed by these broader aspects on the horizon. Not to mention, all other influences on top from the hours days and weeks before, from people. Back in the day, a day would total into at least a few hundred questions and enquiries through on odd narrative I called Home. Odd, if I had of spoken out loud.
Therefore, with all this congestion at a young age, and the fact I was miles apart from anyone barely a metre away in the physical, I found refuge in escaping my up-close reality. So my problems went onto larger ones to hit further down the track. 🤦♂️
Raw Static & Looking Deep
What is Raw Static?
Other than your typical annoyance until it’s tuned-in to a clear picture, Raw Static remains somewhat of a mystery. Perhaps think of speeding asteroids/meteors/comets in outer space that eventually make contact with many others and form into larger masses or creations carrying life. But obviously, on a much faster timescale. These are natures special forces way beyond my comprehension.
How Deep Do I Look in General?
My mind instinctively seeks out the composition or an understanding on a deeper level when it looks at some ‘thing’ or ‘one’.
Although, I always end up bypassing the materials in a thing and head straight for the source that originated in a ‘Being’. Because behind every ‘thing’, which is a blending of the elements, was a ‘Being’ (a Spark) or group of them, that gave it life.
Next, if I sense strong feelings from scanning a thing/person/animal from the stage that it stands, I begin reacting in many ideas that show possibilities and formulas. I try to make deeper sense of something by allowing psychological building blocks to form a bridge between what I perceive as the foreground/surface, and I’d somehow see into the background, to gain a sense of how it all began. Overall, I’d gain a sense of symmetry by glimpsing into the past so that I adjust my heading accordingly.
Please Excuse My Vagueness; It’s All Very New – As I Learn More, I’ll Add More
Also, since many people run many lives and divide themselves up, I pick up on these fragments using both conventional and unconventional measures that one day I might just be able to explain further on (again, I’m vague because it’s new).
Life, for me, is compartmentalised as I’m still quite fragmented! Therefore I can’t help but perceive multiple realities in not only myself, in others as well. In fact, nowadays, I often resist the nosing around as I don’t want to know beyond a certain point.