I’m only fooling myself by not asking these important questions.
Taming in my world definitely came at the cost of a complete meltdown. Or by these massive, crippling dense fragments bred from my ignorance towards the loop between desirable and undesirable experiencing, I wish never to increase again.
Although, even to this day, I still don’t consider myself 100% tamed. It’s more like, I’m somewhat, or semi tamed, in terms of being a good person.
Here’s the thing.
My problems remain as I feel sporadic remnants of an oppressive condition and it’s taking forever to purify these annoying clusters into nothingness or decondition myself once and for all.
I must purify my mind and body to lighten the load; I keep saying.
Or, perhaps, I’ve again, invested too much energy into an Opposing Ideal on the backend, in another sneaky fragment, called The Purifier. Influence of this burning nature deeply urges me to become MUCH BETTER than my current condition, but by using the old habit to conquer everything I see, in contrast! Although, I now feel a need for discretion by executing a long term goal.
Create a large and appealing catchment; then destroy everything impure. In time, I, along with my world, will remain pure.
Yes, I’m past the bulk of my problems. But today I’m still experiencing compression between ideas which does frustrate.