The majority of taming that left a considerable mark on my world, I now attribute to a small number of people. While the bulk of it, came from the broader field, once I got my head around it. Or I suppose what I really mean to write, is, it’s now many that leave a mark, but to follow exactly what not to do.
What can I say? Other than things changed, and I started seeing thru another set of eyes. Now everything looked backwards.
So to gain a capacity out of my incapacitation that I was dug in, meant I had to pull out some serious smarts over the years, or something. The truth is, I see the dead as vibrantly alive these days, and that’s where my undivided attention stands. Not in the walking dead or massively divided.
Lastly, as a result of this incredibly unique combination, my attention now faces INWARDS towards the mechanical aspect of Me–Myself–&–I. I heard the dead, and they kept saying, ‘Lee, you need to look at yourself closer’. So I did, and it stung because I didn’t like what I’d seen. And even though I turned away a few times in the beginning out of my usual fears, denial and pride, etc., I’d always come back to listen to what the invisible had to say.
Listening at another level is what led to steady ground.
The Importance of the Walking, as Well
The Walking, in general, have also significantly helped and without them, I’d be stuffed. It’s just that; I get frustrated at times as they carry on with things that have very little meaning anymore, and it’s hard work keeping up. No one gave me the time to resolve my issues back then, or after, so my mind is elsewhere; I’ve severely deviated from the path.
In fact, I’m reacting quite normally under the circumstances. I got left with no choice but to fortify myself in another reality by compartmentalising life.
Within the Walking is the General and Minority as I’ve already laid out. In all honesty, both have helped in many ways, especially in technical aspects. I’m simply annoyed because I’d fallen out of synch and have no interest in returning. So I’m expecting everyone else to turn over which isn’t happening at a rate I’d like.
However, when it now comes to the psychological/mental health realm, on the other hand, away from technical, I automatically offset the general thinking with a tweak. Otherwise, I’m DOOMED in a polarity war with myself if I don’t! That is, all the up and down nonsense takes over. Besides, it’s my invisible land now anyway. Reality is only catching up and expanding in my favour!
Look, I understand that some ways work in well with most people, but unfortunately, these ideas don’t fit inside my house. They never had! Today, most positive thoughts aimed at me simply no longer convert into sensation underneath, or as much. It’s my new setting when dealing with the Herd. I drop it back a few notches for the sake of an odd wellbeing.
The majority may find this hard to understand because they manage the poles with greater efficiency inside a general scope, as I’ve mentioned and mentioned. But for me, and other Highly Sensitive Minds, we’ll get caught up and move further into an unreal world where we destabilise everyone’s reality! There’s now a higher chance of burdening YOU and future generations by treading on the Health, Social and Legal Systems, etc.
For me to get anywhere close to forward over these years, I travelled entirely backwards on the low (in Level 2).