Why the BIG Website on a Weird Word?
I enjoy talking and writing as most do. But very few understand my preferred line of thinking, especially after I tripped hard in 2010.
Back then, this clever mix of toxins caused a huge meltdown, and I got booted LIGHTYEARS from everyone. I fell further alienated as mega distances added onto the already large gap tab between people, in general, and myself. So I’ve been running an in-house monologue ever since to compensate for my lack of real connections.
Throughout life, I was known as the odd mind with out-there thinking who loved the greater challenge. But the pressurised experiences that shook during and after this unholy event took my perspective to a whole new level.
Once down this rabbit hole, I felt I could hear everyone’s thoughts and they were yelling at me while at the same time a powerful collective read straight back into mine and I couldn’t get free.
It was totally weird; like, I was scanned and then invaded from EVERY possible angle. So with nowhere to hide and hardly any peace, this mess I got stuck in wasn’t fun at all!
Seriously, I would be sitting there, and all of a sudden my reality flicks between channels like a Tv remote in a kids hand while taunting characters came alive 👹. And I couldn’t do a damn thing about it, either; I had to see it thru!
These offensive and aggressive entities, a reflection of myself in a previous life, jumped straight thru the screen and were unstoppable in their loud, demanding ways. Yet this was only ONE of MANY unusual things that threw me out. So the whole experience, or broken down experiences, were full-on!
Talk about tripping!
Some go for hours and days at most, which can be fun (top-shelf). But I peaked for weeks and months, and it felt like years, instead (bottom of the barrel). Hectic was the absolute understatement! From the outside looking in, I was a mess at all angles — someone who’s never coming back.
Upon exiting the big bang, I’d continue to live out the next couple of actual years inside this tight Time Compression Field (👈 take note) where my perception of time stayed amplified or uncomfortably lengthened. E.g. Compress a year into a month and life in this period sux. Except, from then on, each second only felt like a few instead of disturbingly many, thank God. In some aspects, I’m an old man at 40.
Whenever the laws of physics feel like they’ve broken down, you’ll never come back the same.
After the Massive Come Down, I Settled Onto/Into a New Divided Space
Well.. Anything else had to be better than the old divided space! 😌
Eventually, I did partly return and re-enter what people call normal, on the one page. However, on the other, things were never the same, but I had to keep that side strictly to myself, until now (it’s a drain hiding significant parts from others!). Basically, I’ve been living in another reality while keeping it all quiet as I felt my hands were tied since these differences were super hard to explain. Which mind you, also left time slightly amplified and me still out of synch, years on.
However and finally, as I unload the core psyche, this automatically extends my audience to you. I’m excited because, after all this time, I’m closing down an annoying lightyear gap that made life tough. So please, come over and allow yourself to see an odd reality I got caught up in! Or an 8 part UNreality and 2 part reality, since I’d often get them mixed up.