Why the BIG Website on a Weird Word?
Look, I enjoy talking and writing as most do, but very few understand my preferred line of thinking, especially after I tripped hard in 2010. It’s super frustrating being all alone on another plane, to say the least.
Back then, this clever mix of toxins caused a huge meltdown, and I got booted LIGHTYEARS away from everyone. I became super alienated as mega distances increased the already large gap between myself and people in general. Yep, I was already in the red from the get-go, born on a different mental planet. So for a good while now, I have been running a sideline monologue to compensate for my lack of real connections here on Earth.
Throughout life, I was known as the town’s odd mind with out-there thinking who loved the greater challenge. But the pressurised experiences that shook during and after this unholy event took my perspective to a whole new level.
Once down this toxic rabbit hole, I felt I could hear everyone’s thoughts and they were yelling at me. While at the same time, a powerful collective read straight back into my mind and I couldn’t get free.
It was totally weird… like, I was being scanned and then invaded from EVERY possible angle. And with nowhere to hide and hardly any peace in my life, this mess I got stuck in wasn’t fun at all!
Seriously… I would be sitting there and all of a sudden my reality flicks between channels, like when the TV remote is in a kid’s hand, while taunting characters came alive and got further into my head 👺. It was an awful time because it felt so real. And I couldn’t do a damn thing about it either, I had to see it all thru. The endless intimidation, the mocking, teasing, etc.
These offensive and aggressive entities, who, I must say, were a good reflection of myself in a previous life, jumped straight thru the screen and were unstoppable in their loud, demanding ways. Yet this was only one of MANY unusual things that threw me around. So the whole trippy experience, or the many broken down experiences, was full-on…
Talk About Tripping!
Some of us daredevils go on drugs for hours and days at most, which is usually fun at the right concoction (top-shelf). But I peaked in a bad way for weeks and months, and it felt like years instead (bottom of the barrel). Hectic was the absolute understatement! From the outside looking in, I was a mess from all angles — someone who was never coming back to reality.
Upon exiting the big bang (which defied all the odds had you seen me at the time), I lived out the next couple of actual years still inside this tight Time Compression Field (👈 take note), where my perception of time stayed amplified or uncomfortably lengthened. TCF: Compress a year into a month and life in this timeframe sux! Except, from then on, each second only felt like a few, instead of disturbingly many, thank God for that.
In some aspects, I’m basically an old man already…
Whenever the laws of physics feel like they have broken down, one never comes back the same.
After the Massive Come Down, I Settled Into a New Divided Space
Well… Anything else had to be better than the old divided space! 😌
Yes, eventually, I did partly return and re-enter what people call normal on the one hand. However, on the other, things were never the same, but I had to keep that side strictly to myself until now. It’s a total drain hiding significant parts of my life from others! One could say that I’m still tripping. Though thankfully, it is well-managed.
Basically, I have been living in another reality while keeping it all quiet as I felt my hands were tied since these differences were super hard to explain. Which, mind you, has also left time slightly amplified and me still out of synch today.
However, and finally, as I unload my core psyche onto the world, this automatically extends my audience to you. I’m truly excited because after all this time I’m closing down an annoying lightyear gap that made life tough. So please, come on over and allow yourself to see the odd reality I got caught up in! Or an 8 part UNreality and 2 part reality since I would often mix them up.