Why the BIG Website on a Weird Word?
I enjoy talking and writing as most do, but very few understand my preferred line of thinking, especially after I tripped hard in 2010.
Back then, this clever mix of toxins caused a huge meltdown, and I got booted LIGHTYEARS from everyone. I became super alienated as mega distances increased the already large gap tab between people, in general, and myself. So for a while now, I have been running a monologue to compensate for the lack of real connections.
Throughout life, I was known as the town’s odd mind with out-there thinking who loved the greater challenge. But the pressurised experiences that shook during and after this unholy event took my perspective to a whole new level.
Once down this rabbit hole, I felt I could hear everyone’s thoughts and they were yelling at me. While at the same time, a powerful collective read straight back into my own mind and I couldn’t get free.
It was totally weird… like, I was scanned and then invaded from EVERY possible angle. And with nowhere to hide and hardly any peace in my life, this mess I got stuck in wasn’t fun at all!
Seriously… I would be sitting there and all of a sudden my reality flicks between channels, like when the TV remote in a kid’s hand, while taunting characters came alive 👺. And I couldn’t do a damn thing about it either! I had to see it all thru. The endless intimidation, mocking, etc.
These offensive and aggressive entities, who, I must say, were a good reflection of myself in a previous life, jumped straight thru the screen and were unstoppable in their loud, demanding ways. Yet this was only one of MANY unusual things that threw me around. So the whole experience, or the many broken down experiences, was full-on…
Talk About Tripping!
Some of us daredevils go for hours and days at most, which can be fun (top-shelf). But I peaked for weeks and months, and it felt like years instead (bottom of the barrel). Hectic was the absolute understatement! From the outside looking in, I was a mess from all angles — someone who is never coming back.
Upon exiting the big bang (which defied all the odds had you seen me at the time), I lived out the next couple of actual years still inside this tight Time Compression Field (👈 take note), where my perception of time stayed amplified or uncomfortably lengthened. TCF: Compress a year into a month and life in this timeframe sux! Except, from then on, each second only felt like a few, instead of disturbingly many, thank God for that.
In some aspects, I’m basically an old man…
Whenever the laws of physics feel like they have broken down, one never comes back the same.
After the Massive Come Down, I Settled Into a New Divided Space
Well… Anything else had to be better than the old divided space! 😌
Yes, eventually, I did partly return and re-enter what people call normal on the one hand. However, on the other, things were never the same, but I had to keep that side strictly to myself until now. It’s a total drain hiding significant parts of my life from others!
Basically, I have been living in another reality while keeping it all quiet as I felt my hands were tied since these differences were super hard to explain. Which, mind you, also left time slightly amplified and me still out of synch today.
However, and finally, as I unload my core psyche, this automatically extends my audience to you. I’m truly excited because after all this time I’m closing down an annoying lightyear gap that made life tough. So please, come over and allow yourself to see the odd reality I got caught up in! Or an 8 part UNreality and 2 part reality since I would often mix them up.