What Are the Products & Byproducts of My Thoughts?

The Products run smoothly in this order:

PLAYING/REPLAYING my thoughts will cause a SENSATION registering a good or bad emotion (or somewhere in between). This reaction then creates DIRECTION in my mind which goes on to produce ACTION in the real world (on a good day), and thus my idea ends or gets released.

And the Byproduct comes into effect when I attach onto these records and refinements and always process ‘DIRECTION in my mind’ for MORE TASTE  (because I’m too caught up in it!). Therefore, there is less flow of ACTION in my life which causes tension.

For instance, when I’m stuck trying to turn a negative into a positive, or when I’m indulging on that positive note again by abusing photoshop, I veer off.

Thankfully, nowadays, I’ve cut back.

Thoughts are obviously required to get me from A to B, but they clearly have downsides. Because when I’m always processing, this impacts my real-time experience or the present moment, thereby reducing my quality of life. Specifically, when I’m overwhelmed in the makings of Yesterday and Tomorrow, my perception of time fluctuates, and I feel its peaks in both ways, longer in fear AND shorter in delight (when I’m greatly up & down).

I LOSE TOUCH with the present, even though the present is ALL THAT IS in my reality (my REAL-ity setting!).

So again, when the background of my reality floods with this life-residue, it means there is an overflow onto the foreground, and I live everywhere EXCEPT now. I’m no longer afresh to meet new experiences, or I always meet the new, sluggishly, by carrying too much of the old.