How Do I Deal With Fear?

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My fears generally start from either a relationship breakdown or challenge, which includes a lack of quality information or understanding on dealing with everyday things. Or it may start from a sudden surprise which can also create more tension that turns into fear-fuel for me to carry around.

Because I have felt the weight of fear in life, I now aim to avoid repeating these past steps by using whatever means necessary to get it all sorted and out of the way. That is, I am thoroughly learning all about the ‘fear system’ which I feel should have been a compulsory subject at school.

Lesson 1
  • Escape fear for short term relief ❌.
  • Resolve any issues related to fear for long term relief .

Here’s how fear rolls out for me…

From an original bumpy experience that left a negative impression along with the immense magnetism I also feel as ‘intense gravity’ weighing me down, when I see another closely related encounter ahead, I naturally project on possibilities and probabilities at a much faster rate. Although I run through many alternative scenarios to try and work my way thru the in-my-face obstacle, I end up going around it so we don’t have to meet on this occasion! I postpone the predicted scenario so that it occurs on a later date. This is what I mean by escaping fear for short term relief.

Even at the beginning of a fear-fuelled instance, when I decide to sincerely resolve the issue with a ‘wholesome resolution’, as pressures mount, that idea goes out the window. Instead, desperation changes my tune and I abandon the unattainable quest for a long-term, non-fearful state of mind. I settle for soothing my mental pains with a short term hit of comfort foods and spacious, contrasting thoughts, thus allowing my fears to live-on.

As usual, they only go dormant for a moment or two and soon flare back up.

The Negative Field Activation

In my mind, when I again face images, shapes, objects, colours or any mix of symbols, sounds and smells that were involved during the initial fearful experience or recording, I feel it in my gut and automatically search for formulas to make it go away. But unfortunately, once I hit a certain level or a compressed state of mind, I’ll run with anything that will cut it short. I’ll go with whatever it takes to help me keep my distance from pressure. Only then can I sanely figure it out once and for all. But in reality, I never do, and so I carry on to the next pressurised event in ignorance.

Today, I realise that if I don’t deal with fear directly, I leave background processes open 24/7 drawing on my energy. And with the hard drive already full of junk as years of multiple threads and programs stack-up, this creates heavy idling in my general day-to-day life which seriously weighs me down!

How a Dormant Fear Comes Back to Life

If a symbol or sound pops up that even remotely corresponds with any of my backlog of fears, then the entire thread awakens its family tree of thoughts and becomes an extensive foreground process. My weakened psyche now demands greater negative emotional resources, which is why I try to wriggle out with positive emotional resources in a short term fix.

The accumulated weight from my many previous escapes took away my natural ground. It was the only place I could firmly move from.