Hidden Frustrations Expressed Physically

For years, everyone in my personal life used to carry on about why I was so skinny and that I had to eat more. Naturally, I fed them the most straightforward reason, even though it was a lie, because the truth was too difficult to explain. In fact, if it weren’t for my daily lying for years, I wouldn’t have made it through. White lying is what saved my life on many occasions, and I thank my god for that.

Seriously… You don’t need to watch your carbs to stay lean. All you need is the right story, from the right group of powerful people, to create the right stir, and then surround yourself with the ‘black or white only’ minded everyday folks from here on. Then you naturally watch your back along with everyone else’s close to you, thereby burning up the fuel in your stomach much faster from the increased stress.

Then you boil away underneath in a chaotic system.

Dear Life, I could do with a Brain Scan or an MRI because of these serious long-term head and neck pains that I nearly pass out from (mostly on the left-hand side), due to the fear and anger in stories that make me very uptight. I need a Doctor who won’t put his nose where it doesn’t belong, sign a few forms, and I’ll be on my way as I look at the physical aspect of all this.

Ok, so instead of waiting for a solid resolution or until the story fills in the blanks from somewhere else, it’s now my time to gain strength and seize power behind the scenes. I’ve already waited too long, and this built-in demanding process won’t let up until I feel certain and safe of any unwanted surprises related to the stories that made the mess. Whether I like it or not, there is another set of rules governing my behaviour, so the goal now is to fill the blanks out myself for closure.

Recent Update: My head and neck pains have lessened since clearing up my story. Thank goodness for that as they were driving me crazy. I can now put this story to rest!