Let’s look at a thought within the dimension of thought, or from a theatrical/story/narrative perspective:
Thoughts, like images etched onto film, comprehensively describe stories, including my emotional responses in finer detail.
My thoughts can be a wonder of mountains, oceans, and other landscapes full of mystery, and this makes me feel uplifted and inspired. Alternatively, they can be images of a darker nature, leaving behind a very different emotional footprint.
In the end, thoughts cover a broad spectrum of emotional charge, as such they can affect my life in both positive and negative ways. Fortunately, I come from a long line of positively-charged emotional thoughts that made it thru earlier, harder times of negatively-charged emotional thoughts. In this sense, we are starting to look from beyond the dimension of thought.
The Creation Process
As we step back even further, the focus turns to how a thought became a thought, its substance along with the roll, container, and all the other bits and pieces that make us act the way we do. Let’s steer clear of Story-Mode or the theatrics from narratives and aim for a deeper type of breakdown. In this case, I’ll step back into the parent directory of my mind to give a fair description of how I believe a thought is formed.
A thought is made out of a reaction to an experience or from reacting to previous thoughts continuing in a series (in ongoing thinking as I visualise and explore potential directions on an unreal canvas), either programmed or consciously put together.
When created by experience, an impression stamps and stores in my mind as minute crystallised residue in the physical world similar to the way an old camera operates with film. Or perhaps we could just think of it as lodged photons that travelled thru the eyes, ears, skin, etc., that make up the overall thought and its ‘feeling attribute’.
Next, my newly created record or film becomes readily available to be relived from the archives upon several triggers:
- By Recall – Targeted mind searching via the conscious act.
- By Response – In my reaction to another closely related experience.
- By Habit – From the cogs of my Inhouse Conditioning, which is when my thoughts respond to other thoughts in a series of related thinking (via the subconscious act.)
Although the sensations from my thoughts are not as rich as the ones derived from the initial experience, I’m able to rebroadcast and feel remnants of the effects by replaying my thoughts over and over. However, the more I replay the same thoughts in quick succession, the less richness I get from them.
Plus (and I do this quite often), I inflate my thoughts into more than what they are by blending in other snippets of information, thereby enhancing my thoughts for exaggeration purposes, creating a stronger feeling of past events. An example of this is when I talk myself up or dramatise my life for greater effect. More often than not, I’m simply trying to get closer to the original rich effect.
This Is How I Roll 📽️
By reliving each moment and replaying my memories, I convert a series of lower grade duplicate sensations that will either satisfy or frustrate me for a short while or until they run out of emotional fuel. In which case, I modify my thoughts based on pleasure or fear, or the lack thereof that I feel I’m missing.
It’s only after I have had a long break from looking at sensationalised memories and their refinements that I might project the closest version to the original slides. However, after more of the same replaying, my lifelong habit is to find ways to replenish the taste because of my demanding mind-tastebuds.
Unfortunately, the original event doesn’t play for long in my head as I’m always refining the image of myself, along with everything and everyone else around me, for constant emotional satisfaction. This is how a refined projection can easily appear as an original memory projection, when it’s actually a highly modified, exaggerated version instead.