Now because ‘thought’ plays a huge role in my life, is a regular place I’m troubled from, and my attempt to fix things using my non-troubled side would always fail or be too short-lived, it was only logical that I delve deeper into its nature.
Otherwise, I could stay and continue the shenanigans on the surface as usual, hunting for an elusive ALMIGHTY mental-piece that would end all ails. But why bother? I’ve played games for far too long already! The refinement that I project might provide a sense of something helpful in a quick pleasantry or two. But the reality is, the paradigm under which I operate is still the same.
Over the last couple of years, an overwhelming interest drove me to better understand my thoughts, especially after trying everything else. This out-of-the-box mission had me looking into all the energetic packets of influences embedded within or behind my thinking, so I could work everything out. Something said, “Lee, go find out whatever it is that’s serving up the KICK in your mind.”
I use an ancient old technique to escape a negative by scouting my mind for positives.
I’d see something clearly which significantly affects me. Or I can’t see something clearly, and this insecurity of not knowing what’s ahead also affects me in the same manner, if not more.
Therefore, since these tiny psychological-snippets ROCKED my world and moved me to extremes at both ends of the pole, in the greatest of pleasures and horrific fears, then I knew it was time to get into gear and look closer.