Simplified Will

My overall behaviour gets tamed by a vast library of programs derived from all previous encounters. As another result, life also creates a significant overflow in a byproduct that I call ‘Weight’ or ‘Dense Time’. Weight is an invisible messy mind mass that complicates what should only be a simple situation in life. When it comes to lining up my will on a goal today, I see at least two challenges as Weight that stand before me:

Firstly, during the initial startup of will, or when I’m at a distance from the activity, I’m known to reach in early for my reward in a Cash Advance. This lifelong habit of early-bird speculating, which turns to daydreaming, is detrimental to any real chance to bring the goal alive as my desire or motivation within the process of will loses value from being spent early.

Secondly, as I get closer to the actual leg work, objective ideas bombard my mind in an attempt to lengthen the gap and keep it wide. My resistance, which tries to keep old comforts in place, further elevates, leaving me weak and wanting to escape. Therefore, the sense of time significantly compresses within my state of mind as the task gets closer and closer.

I look for any excuse to wriggle out because it feels much better when I’m at a distance from any leg work. Here, I can simply dream on with the positive force and without any bother.

With a takeover now assured by these two well-developed hindrances that operate outside optimal settings, in problems that both overly Attract and Repel, also overlapping one another, I barely move productively if at all. In fact, it is my tendency to create and aggravate a problem while convincing myself otherwise that I’m on the right path.

Seeing the Deeper Symmetry Activates the ‘Will Protocol Update Process’

It now astounds me that after many years of being in love with my ‘will at arm’s length only’, to then have it flip when coming in close, it could have all been avoided by something as simple as acknowledging this blueprint. Thankfully, these stories that continue to hold me ransom in both positive and negative ways aren’t so grabbing anymore.

My underlying desperation and pleas to buy more time, the numerous distractions that catch me off guard in any excuse to avoid the task, and also the variety of rewards given far too early, are challenges that no longer weigh me down. It was like they were all perfectly packaged to protect me from the shackles of behavioural change, since unsettling my comfort zone and habits were the most prominent issues to date.

When equipped with a Highly Sensitive Mind, I’m not only a Complex Creature of Habit, but I’m also a Creature of Complex Habit.