Blurring My Worlds:
The Real & Unreal

Up until now, I moved backwards and sideways in my reality via the Level 1 complicated way of ‘thinking more to achieve less’. Unfortunately, it was a psychodemic only ever looked at and dealt with superficially up until a few years ago. During this time, I lived rigidly, clumsily and stupidly when producing outwardly in the real world. While inwardly, I felt I had everything perfectly crisp. That’s the catch 22 of a Level 1 revolving door.

And these bad habits weren’t only ‘sometimes’ either which might have been okay. But a ‘lack of flow’ from too much thinking ruled almost all aspects of physical life, which I then went the extra step to compensate for by manufacturing a ‘fake flow’ from refined foods and chemicals that trigger the overriding positive force.

Well, the harder stuff of booze and drugs created a greater artificial space to combat the compression felt in my negative-charged ideas. On top, it also made my unreal world look and feel particularly real, which fed my ego even more fuel so that I ended up living in another reality altogether. ‘Compression of time leads to a depression of mind’ is what I ultimately worked out in the end. This is exactly why I escaped and floated my way through life, instead of pressing through the harder times.

You see, when I wasn’t stumbling like a fool from condensed or heavy thinking, I was drifting about on a cloud like a fool from the extreme opposite way of lighter thinking. So either way, I would end in a different reality, making life extremely difficult to deal with.

My everyday traits were driven by an unrealistic future that turned out to be nothing more than a byproduct from overloading the sensors

So the Next Question Arose…

How do I shift this internal overactivity that’s burning ablaze inside and transfer its energy outwardly, strengthening my interaction with the real world?

Instead of running up and down the house (my mind) like a locked up kid on sugar, I needed to get outdoors (the real world) far more often.