The Negative Force

Fear Fingers

Fear’s empowerment has an enormous impact on my life, and it’s now easy to see how the world is also gripped by its influence. As I react to an experience, a memory recollection or future projection that in any combination raises the sense to resist a movement, I head the other way as signals attack my nerves. This process is the nature of fear.

General Pain, however, I find is the response to a fresh physical incursion in my experience, rather than from trace residue roaming the mental pathways from psychological traumas found in old experiences.

Although, fear-related pain in any form, either my physical fears (projecting biological harm) or psychological fears (my hurt ego, emotions or heart) can both severely affect me, especially when old experiences won’t let up. If I hold a trauma and can’t bring it to an end or find a resolution somehow, when in the extreme my system goes haywire. I become an anxious person with panic attacks that suck me dry.

Fear Totally Sux!

Resistance in my system is broad and covers a large range of life, whether my scenario is safe, dangerous or unpredictable. For instance, I might feel the weight of something occurring in my mind, but my physical surroundings are completely safe with minimal chance of these thoughts ever realising. Thus, my fear from past events affects the here and now reality as weight only, and not in the way that the images project with something jumping out in front of me. Otherwise, resistance can affect me when an unexpected undesirable experience pops up, and this obviously disrupts my nervous system as it does with most people.

Either way, once I’m taken out of my comfort zone, the potential exists for fear to condense into a powerful system at lightning speeds. Which I would then feel as pain being expressed across my body.

For example:

If in my path I suddenly see a connection to a previous stressful event, or if something extremely chaotic pops up, I get crippled in fear within the blink of an eye. My heart can jump out of my body and I’ll either incapacitate myself and freeze, or go all-in and act primal to deal with it.

I face a fight or flight scenario.

Fear can affect me in the same manner, if not more than a physical incursion in pain. But in general, and as most know, it drags on as stress.

Differentiating Fear From Pain

Both fear and pain are two obvious things that no one wants any of (at least in themselves). As fear builds up, this leads to my greater emotional discomfort, which ultimately becomes a noticeable pain that puts me out of balance. The cogs upstairs compress while the anxious story plays, generating heat, sweat and tears to the surface of my body. This is an inside-out movement.

Therefore, fear is a thought-only internal response that whips from within. While on the other hand, standard pain is undesirable contact with the outside world, and thus an outside-in movement. Or it is more significant outside pressures that send stronger signals across my nervous system. Unless, however, I’m born with a built-in hereditary illness that causes physical grief regardless of external factors. Then I have my upline to thank for that.

Again… Typically, my fears are a dull and drawn out but adaptable process. While pain is the shorter but sharper response. Overall, I prefer the lesser of the two evils, whichever one that may be at the time.

A good friend said to me…

If you’re in immense pain because of your thoughts, take a hammer to your toe. Problem solved.