As I looked into society’s forward programming of ‘more is more’, something amazing happened and my life changed in a most profound way.
Ever since I became aware of my unconventional wiring, paying special attention to the ‘higher idling’ from over-using my memory, my life changed. But it wasn’t before countless attempts to integrate the conventional way of thinking, still believing I could simply move along the forward track as everyone else does. “Surely, there is a better pill to take to solve all my problems!” I kept telling myself. In the end, being aware of these layers working around the clock was the only policy that helped recondition my psyche as I began to watch myself deeply, including both the real and unreal directions taking place.
You see from this point, I genuinely wanted quality and not quantity to prevail, so I knew I had to drop everything previously taught in terms of diving into ‘learning something’ in order to move forward. If there was any REAL chance of long term benefits, I’d have to put the majority of my recollections aside as part of an unheard-of psychological diet — namely, less is more. In other words, I had to redefine the word ‘forward’ in the psychological arena. I want to not retain unnecessary information for once, but only the necessary information.
For most people, acquiring information is a way of moving forward intellectually. The more information they gain, the more they are able to learn down the road. However, as a highly sensitive mind I realised that acquiring information also has the potential to hold me back. In many cases, I remained fixated on the knowledge I had, leaving me little space for learning anything new. That’s when I truly knew that the only way to move forward was to let go of information, keeping an open, uncluttered mind all throughout.
Essentially, I needed to treat every piece of knowledge as a stepping stone, creating a path of forward thinking. Rather than collecting the stones, which would weigh me down, I would use them to get from one point to the next, leaving them very much where I found them. In this light, the only way to move forward is to leave everything behind. And thus, Backwards took on a whole new meaning. Today, my mind has in a sense gone into hibernation compared to yesterday, thereby saving significant energy. Subsequently, my understanding technique relied on all throughout life is now laid to rest. Thank God for that.
Furthermore, the once toxic love I had for overboard learning, along with my dislike for learning things I was opposed to, has gracefully moved most of its cloud from in-front of my seeing energy and opened up a new life for me.