Plagued by a bizarre learning barrier I’d never seen before, I knew I had to try something fundamentally different. I had to stop wasting both my time and energy stuck in a revolving door of always learning the hard way.
Only now, after a good deal of watching these cunning intentions perform their manoeuvres over the years, would my feelings toward the matter of ‘fully understanding’ each experience strengthen. That is, something profound happened in an ‘understanding transformation’ or ‘evolution’, and it re-energised my situation. Another crucial game-changer unravelled since finally seeing how this bad habit was blocking my progress in life.
What triggered the first course of action was when I took a moment to look at the flow of information processing, without reading too much into it. Seeing the ‘workload’, if you will. Although, admittedly, it was hard to spot and let go of each stale learning affair at the beginning of this discipline because it was such a normal way of living for me. Not only that, but I also loved sharing and duplicating my habit with friends, family, and anyone else nearby who’d naturally spread the bad trait on.
During the earliest phase, I thought to myself: “Not only am I infected with a type of mind-spam that affects my learning, but it feels like I’m spreading it on to the next person. Also, did I catch a dose of this from others growing up?”
Fortunately, as I continued through each phase, my subtle cutback from forcing myself to understand something, along with constantly replaying information surrounding an alleged incomplete understanding, was definitely enough to start unwinding or unlearning from what kept me in circles before. This helped to not only undo my mind-spam, but also to keep from infecting others, so I now have a cleaner sphere of influence as a result. Even so, I haven’t even touched on the topics or objects of information that I’m trying to learn as this discipline simply lives on another level.
Of course, I want to absorb the world in front or in line with my interests. But, by the look of it, things need to be done without accumulating or mental-hoarding every single event in my mind, which only creates interference for upcoming experiences. If that makes sense.
So, why didn’t I see this before? This is yet another way, I find, where nearly everyone else manages their learning pathways and abilities far better than me.
Releasing ‘My Understanding of Things’ at the Second-Hand Level
In the end, by NOT continuing the impractical fascination of a better or finer understanding into something that had already dealt its card, I’d finally left enough quality room upstairs to energise and learn the next crucial piece of the puzzle. It was a matter of getting out of my own way in the future of learning, leaving behind a clean space of energy for my attention to attend.
I figured, whatever experiences were to follow from here, I’d have a much better chance of understanding in real-time without all the background commotion. Therefore, my trust went into this completely backwards approach, with the trade-off being I was to let go of the replay in order to allow quality to thrive as first impression is always best. Unfortunately, catching and releasing the complication proved tricky at first, as I’m so ingrained to grab hold of all my files upstairs with the aim of gaining more and more sensation.
