Many moons ago (2015), I had an odd idea that kept bugging me. I felt I could eventually transform our traditional meaning of the word ‘Mindless’, which to most means stupid, and thus flip it into a good thing. So after fine-tuning, perseverance and a bit of odd luck, I knew ‘less is more’ was the way for me to go in order to get my life back on track.
I needed to break the word ‘Mindless’ down, define the parts, and put them back together again in the hope that the last part cancelled out the emphasis on the first part. Then, I’d somehow have to explain it to the world. 🤦♂️
However… I was also lightyears away from conveying any deeper or stronger understanding to anyone else since I was struggling to hold things up on my end. Unfortunately, my smaller picture at home had way too many cracks for me to become an artist of anything!
Long story short… I had to map out MY OWN COGS before expecting others to understand. Also, I had to do it myself using the out-there information I gathered. I definitely couldn’t have someone else do it for me, spreading excessive amounts of their conventional wisdom that never quite fit. Which meant, I would have to at least show where I was coming from if I was to achieve common ground and consideration from someone else’s part. Because that is what any sane person would do, or at least any person who is attempting to be sane again.
So from here, it was made clear to me that I would lead a Top Secret Mission on my own. Quietly, but thoroughly, I would construct a Mindless Scrapbook combining both the Art and Logic to best describe my funny state of mind. A Scrapbook, mind you, that has now evolved into The Core Update, Mindware, Mindless-Ware, Deep Deep Psychology, and don’t be surprised if there are more names to come.
Plus, the mix today includes any grey-area features along with the heavier bits of darkness that are hiding away upstairs, or a good part of my egoic side, if that makes sense. Because in all honesty… it can get a little dark up there, or down there as it were 👿.
Yes… I’m made of lighter shades and darker shades, so why continue denying it? In fact, I hold a variety of shades and can revisit any number of them multiple times a day. However, I can also hide everything well so that you have no idea of any mischief running in the background.
Mischief? Yes, my mostly unseen, underground aspect is home to my dear little devil who has all these peculiar ideals and desires banked up. Though thankfully, those ideals and desires are far less destructive than the ones I cherished years ago. Undoubtedly, my devil has helped in the lining of this website, so how can I leave him out? It just wouldn’t be fair as he can also do far more good than bad.
And please, before you turn away… let’s be honest. We all have a secretive, cunning entity running in the background. Either a dash, teaspoon or cup full.
Or in simple terms, I’m taking another approach to life by embracing the mix of good and bad within, my light and dark, positive and negative, rather than denying the existence of one side and staying divided like previously. Most people can manage their divide efficiently this way, but not me. At least in my newer way, I’m in close contact with the fact that I am a split person who lives in contradiction. Therefore, I see the real or complete me which can only help to improve my life since it is of an unconventional making which requires an unconventional approach!