Simple Desire:
Discovering the Nature of My Complex

Like everyone, I’m a creature of habit. My programs are made of past influences that are now ingrained within me. These snippets of information have naturally encoded into my “/psychological/conditioning/” mental folder, while a refined version subfolder “/psychological/conditioning/refined/” clearly shows up on my desktop or frontend display for the majority of people to see.

The unrefined version, or the full spectrum information of my conditioning, definitely needs to stay suppressed as there are still heavy or spammy programs I prefer people not to see.

To this day, I continue to latch onto various inputs of stimuli and my attention shifts between different states of mind as I regularly feel my brain chemistry spike.

By the time I reach a high from desiring, I begin shifting course. Soon, I hit pockets of resistance through the feel-bad brain chemistry on the opposite side of the appeal, aka the undesirable field.

Furthermore, in terms of days; i.e., Monday thru Sunday, today, yesterday, and tomorrow, these widely used synchronised human linear programs affect me more so than other words stored in my repository, as they almost always come loaded with desire and fear.

For example, “I have to see such and such on Tuesday, today, or tomorrow”, which ties up desire’s energy in either a good or bad-felt way. On a good note, “I can’t wait to try the new thing on Friday, today, or tomorrow”. This pleasantly ties up desire’s energy in only a good-felt way. On a bad note, it goes the opposite way, and I’m not looking forward to Friday, today or tomorrow.

The idea of a day or two can feel even better or worse based on what’s tied in with the surrounding days. A cluster of bad days can turn the following few normal days into nice ones. Therefore, either way, I can’t help but live a life controlled by fluctuating positive or negative desire demands through these dominant top-level ideas called ‘days’.

Do you feel the same way about them? What have you got on today or tomorrow?