Again, let’s say I hadn’t entirely understood something of interest and felt a bugging sense of incompletion, along with my desire to conquer it or map it out.
After the experience, and by my typical impulse, I’d hunt incessantly for the next connecting piece of the understanding puzzle. Except, it was far too often from within the archives/records, as I’d already laid out. Or better put, rather than I allow new experiences to freshen things up, I’d stay scratching the same old itch by indulging in episode reruns. An obsession that halted progress by creating a dirty filter.
Over the last decade, my field of interest shifted towards the psychological world and is now where I’ve put my energy. I suppose you could say it was my late calling or blooming. But it is also a solid one that best matches my built-in bits and pieces.
On the other hand, however, and in the less appealing vast technical world, or in a world that processes relationships between material things, is a place I’d often struggle with unless it had to do with bare basics or something that played a larger role in life from closer and more frequent exposures. Where, naturally, an attraction grew.
Technical knowledge covers mountains of info, and I don’t have enough years left to learn it all, let alone even a small portion. Nor do I want to! However, of the little I know, there are times I need to revert to the archives for help on remembering an issue. While other times, I need to dig.
For instance, a lack of appeal meant I took only a superficial snapshot rather than grasping the clearer details as a particular event played out. I.e. An overwhelming sense of resistance interfered with my learning/recording, and I produced a lousy photo/movie that got thrown into the trash end of my mind.
My internal chattering stretched the band of resistance and energy got taken from the seeing as I was fixing my bike under frustrations — I was clouded or fogged up at the time.
I’d learnt by an unnatural demand (a greater effort was needed: I didn’t want to, BUT I HAD TO), and wasn’t at a place of natural ground to cleanly/clearly process the information detailing the adjustment. Which should have also included the recorded measurement I’d need later on.
A Cleaner Intake & More Room
When I forcefully search my mind for one tiny impression, so I remember a measurement similar to the above example, sometimes it feels like I’m hopeless salvaging from in amongst the junk. If I pull it up a few years later and without too much fuss, that’s perfect, I can’t complain. However, I don’t see much learning involved. I’m just recording like a camera. But obviously, I do need to know where I’ve put the tape.
Oops, it went to the trash again! 🗑️
Think of the game Trivia (something I completely suck at!). When looking closely, we’ll notice that the winners usually carried a stronger appeal quality matching most of the questions laid out (obviously). Unless, certain topics were drilled in by our parents and peers, and the info is ingrained until the day we die, whether we all like it or not!
But usually, a healthier appeal quality (less resistance/clouds) clears the stage and allows a greater or cleaner intake of information.
When I’m optimised, it means I’m able to recall records of ‘numbers’ ‘symbols’ and ‘words’ with greater ease, or without digging thru too much crap!
Disciplining the appeal quality (slowing down that positive replay!) is what made a huge difference between a sharp, simple understanding and a complex one relying on intense recollecting. It was because the loop from attraction to resistance had lost strength.
Today, I’m now better equipped to 1) learn onwards and open new revelations from less idling, and 2) recall things of value (measurements) faster from a cleaner intake.
Therefore, the technical world, in general, became easier to understand and manage.