Projecting My Thoughts

Welcome to the backstage of my invisible yet technical world. Here I edit and make enhancements to my inner theatre.

Slides Modifying Onto a New Canvas Forming a Projection

An Unreal Human Projector
Do I see reality clearly? Or am I stuck elsewhere?

Projecting is my primary mental activity, and sometimes I feel as if this process carries on NON-STOP. As the original slides record, signals or packets of influence cause a chain of reactions — subtle to intense.

First, I take my inner-snapshot. Following on, I naturally respond to these new pixel and sound files by projecting further possibilities out of a modification based off all that I know. Or I react to life with a greater combination of other data from my history and rearrange all the info on my canvas/screen to suit.

In a previous life, I was stuck replaying and changing things around. Though often I would believe… Hey, I’m moving forward.

Let’s look at the two types of processing that goes on: Simple and Complex.

Simple Projecting

Known as Simple or Standard Projecting, I map out a potential in an unreality so I can find my way in life’s reality.

Put it on paper, then, action! 🎬

However, over the years my processing intensified and it got busy upstairs. I created a mess out of an unbalanced mix or overdose of choice and environmental pressures.

Too much space for choosing (unrealistic silly paths) left me unsure, juggling my ideas. Plus, coupled in with my life-long supply of rocket fuel, complications naturally grew. Sure, I love the freedom of having many options in my reality. But in my unreality where I’m sensitive, this caused too many problems. Therefore it was a concoction of pressures that stirred things up, for which I only have myself to blame.

Ultimately, I reached a point of producing endless-series or many volumes of these additional projections/pixels, and they’d offer several outcomes. Each delivered a slightly different hit thru an array of sensation that kept me busy upstairs only, as I would obsessively hunt for MORE feeling in another variation. While consciously, I was convinced otherwise. Hey, I’m on a good thing, looking productively at what to do next.

What a freakin circus!

Complex Projecting

Complex Projecting, which the Standard climbed up to when I was young, repeatedly tied me up making me ‘king of the mind junkies’! Although admittedly, this process continues, but on a much lighter note.

At the peak, my life map grew so enormous that my thoughts/contents overflowed everywhere, which is why I found it difficult following the posts on the ground. Therefore the ONLY real reward gained were these extreme unreal highs in an imaginary world — no more than a tricky pattern ALWAYS holding me down.

Take a couple of cars as an example; one that runs smoothly verse one idling higher because of neglect.

Previously, that bung car was me.

I’d guzzle fuel and blow smoke by the end of the street.

There are many ways to explain the differences between the two scopes or spaces. Still, it all comes down to my internal overactivity versus a smooth, natural flow between my inner and outer worlds. Heavy vs Lighter Processing.


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