Next, as I see myself stumbling from border patrol duties from the negative inundation, before quitting, I would at least prepare a set of aiding ideas. I’d at least try to call on something or another to help restore order and patch up my perimeter. So, whenever the Lower Frequency had advanced or made ground, I could also summon Positive Reinforcement or a Higher Frequency to come in and save my day, by sandbagging these dirty leaks.
However, the only unfortunate part was, my positive that worked against the negative, also totalled into the overall picture. Which meant, this busyness made it a mission for me to stay focused as I was so energy drained.
Greater Energy Spent on the Border Weakened My Focal Point
Lastly, as I’d work myself into a frenzy, I was ready to pull the plug once and for all. Being far too restless and statically charged from the background commotion, I knew my time focussing on whatever, was done. In hindsight, what could have been a simple walking task, turned into a fully-fledged operation instead.
Thoughts congested both ends of my mind as an arsenal of positivity bombarded my second-guessing and vice versa, all between a weak me and strong me, that together creates a cloud of smoke. Lawless psychological activity roamed and ruled the pathways, halting any valuable progress. And before I knew it, my focus had long gone.
So by the time I made my way thru all the fluctuating inner monologue, which amounts to a dialogue or trialogue, the very last thing I want to do more of is to focus! My energy got taken off the centre, which meant, each second amplified, making it much harder to translate and record the finer specs.