Yesterday – The Constant Reminder

Yesterday often implies a mind caught up in the past on the fear side of things according to my experiences. But just like Tomorrow which, mind you, doesn’t limit to a calendar day, it can also suggest a positive note being played.

Fortunately, in the wake of everything, I’m not so drowned-out or as inundated by Yesterday’s heavier events since successfully negating the positives. This means that I’m not so caught up in clinging to previous pleasantries anymore which is where the heavier seeds were sown. I have now lessened the bite for when the cycle of life makes its way back from a positive note to a negative grind.

Now for a Frustrating Habit

Regardless of the emotional charge I felt when looking back into my history, I would often fool myself into thinking that an event happened ONE WAY, when in fact, it really went down in ANOTHER WAY! This practice eventually turned into a habit, one that would cause all sorts of problems. 🤦🏻‍♂️

Using a combination of ignorance and ego which reinforced my habit, I boldly created a false past by either watering down OR stirring up the recorded experience. I was always making new problems though, as my habit went on to shape my refined projections to appear as original records. Except, they definitely weren’t a clear representation of what took place in reality!

I, the illusionist, hereby make this ‘refinement’ a ‘memory slide’… while also convincing others of the same misrepresentation.

Remember… The memory slide is an original record, while the enhancement or shaping is a refinement. A refinement is fine so long as I see it for what it truly is.

Don’t worry… we’ve all been there with at least a little exaggeration in our step to create the Enhanced Version of Yesterday we so desire. But now, I’m glad that I recognise my habit of making convenient versions of the past!

Was My ‘Yesterday’ Fact or Fiction?

The moment I inflate or deflate any feature from the database by secretly taking a copy, modifying it and then switching it back under the seal of ‘authentic’, I have created a refined projection in place of the actual record, thus altering my perception of reality.

Identifying or running my life from modifications will always require defending and reinforcing. It simply takes more of my energy when interacting with people who don’t see thru the same filters!

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