Polarising & Depolarising

In my mind, when I play with positives I get stung with negatives back and forth. Obviously, most can manage the split in a convenient divide, or without too much bother. But I’m not most. So, what I need instead is a little space in between to catch a quick breath or two as a way to start backing off.

You see, I’m now aware that polarity will have its day if I don’t pull up on my habits. My investment into re-running stories, refining mental images over and over for a greater outcome or potential experience to occur, when really I’m after stronger psychological chemical conversions, does nothing but create a complex system of belief through a narrative.

Complications occur when letting conversions from ideas and ideals run overly wild.

So if there’s no slowing or releasing my thoughts, I hold little discipline when processing. My rogue mind ultimately exhausts a positive into a negative.

But I’m not suggesting that I use the brakes of thought by pushing things away. It took some time, but I now clearly see that countering or resisting only adds ‘more story’ on top of the ones already playing.

Whatever story plays out makes little difference. Why? It is still my unreal world taking too much energy.

Previously, more thought was the only answer in my old way, and I couldn’t stop myself from thinking no matter how hard I tried. On autopilot, I would always chase down the perfect refinement that would hit the spot in the fastest and easiest route.

Today, only from a firm understanding as to why I should cease each movement, I finally have the vital energy needed to release the bulk of my clouded thinking. By seeing the detriment in both my continuation and suppression (by redirecting my thoughts with others) I can affect real and meaningful change. Therefore, it is a simple matter of negating my way thru life.